Notes, news, & observation:
Notes: I need to figure out how to have more energy each morning. I realize I drag my ass out of bed each morning. I wonder if I was more awake then maybe I would be more productive. The sad thing is that I think I am only productive 3 hrs out of the 17 hrs that I am awake. I heard fish oil is suppose to be good for you. Maybe I'll try that.
News: I just found out I have a cousin that is 2 weeks old. Jus just became a father and is half retired in Maui right now. Apparently he is building on his land and working on his plan retirement place. But the interesting thing is that my cousin Ed had his kid earlier this year. So basically, my nephew has a uncle that is 6 months younger than he is. Man I got a strange family. If there is ever going to be a family get together, then lots of explanations are needed.
Observation: A lady came into the restaurant that I was having lunch at and asked some of the oddest questions. She sat down and said, "No tea, I am allergic to tea." My thought, "I never thought anyone would be allergic to tea. Then the waiter brings water and asked what she likes to order. She asked whether the pan cake had a lot of sugar. Because she can't have too much sugar. Then the waiter suggested something else. Then she said if the meat had MSG. She said she could dye from it. The waiter to my surprise was pretty nice and suggested vegetable, then the lady ask how much MSG in the meat. Bottom line, my whole thought was that too bad she is allergic to things. But man, if you come to a CHINESE restaurant, know the obvious. I don't understand people sometimes.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Neutral Equality
Not much I want to blog at this time right now. Still trying to digest the week maybe. But there is one thing that I have to comment on, but it will upset the general public. That topic being the same sex marriage that is on every news channel today. First of all, I don't get it!!! Now we have to be P.C. about marriage by saying that it is a gender neutral marriage. What the heck? I've seen the the news and reason behind the same sex marriage topic. But could it be that this is where the liberals became too liberal? You can say rights of human, freedom of expression, equality, etc.... whatever that the coin phrase we use to say hey lets have and work on totalitarianism and then utopia. But really, why bother with this? Where is the boundary? Do anyone see the long term effects of this? Is there a gender neutral dress room that I can go when I need to try on clothes? Or an equal house that I can go into anytime I want to walk through a house? Or a gender neutral bathroom that I can pee, leave the lid up and hit on the person in the next stall? Better yet is there a gender neutral way for me to say it is that time of the month? Yes it is absurd. I think separation and differences exist possibly for a reason and serve a purpose. Somehow people thinks it is a negative thing. We don't have to look at a culture or even a specific religion to understand. If you just look at it, we are all governed by the natural law or law of nature (religious connotation). Even the word and act of law sets, define, and limits. There are limits, boundaries, and categories that makes life good. I don't think people should intrude or copy, instead they should innovate with the new if they want to make a statement. If you want something, start something for you, but don't go into someone else's world and try to enforce your opinion and belief. History already taught us that wars, deaths, alienation, poverty, and anything you can think of started with the idea that we should impose upon our belief.
On the economic side. Having a gender neutral marriage is going to hurt the economy and it will have a ripple effect that people have yet considered. Cost of health care will rise and increase even so more as we age. Company will have to consider how they need to assess the cost of having an employee. Now all the benefit payments they have will increase and cost per employee unit just got higher today. Yes, they measure this in human resource. Taxes may need to be hiked and adjusted. Really? How so? Just speaking for the company in the US, it makes sense to hire oversea labor because today they just became that much cheaper. Just think about the ripple. Start from the business, then to the politics, then to the laws, then to the finances, the taxes, and then finally to the homes. What changes and adjustment will come of this? I come to wonder if the benefit really out weight the cost for the change in definition of marriage that happened today? Is this about economics? Man where is my gender neutral marriage person?
Closing comment. I love the bay area. I have many things that I love about the people here and the diversity it brings. The opportunity to express and to just work on the acceptance of difference people. Part of that acceptance is first identify that there are differences. Then the true acceptance really form. With all that freedom in this place, also comes control and perseverance. I am sad to think that with a location that is filled with so many smart people per square mile, we can at time makes the dumbest choices. There were other place like bay area and they became history. Maybe the bay area needs to just be a little less bay area sometimes and start to see how life really is outside of the bay area. Harmony does not come from looking the other way, but instead it comes from looking at the differences and then realize the beauty that the differences bring.
On the economic side. Having a gender neutral marriage is going to hurt the economy and it will have a ripple effect that people have yet considered. Cost of health care will rise and increase even so more as we age. Company will have to consider how they need to assess the cost of having an employee. Now all the benefit payments they have will increase and cost per employee unit just got higher today. Yes, they measure this in human resource. Taxes may need to be hiked and adjusted. Really? How so? Just speaking for the company in the US, it makes sense to hire oversea labor because today they just became that much cheaper. Just think about the ripple. Start from the business, then to the politics, then to the laws, then to the finances, the taxes, and then finally to the homes. What changes and adjustment will come of this? I come to wonder if the benefit really out weight the cost for the change in definition of marriage that happened today? Is this about economics? Man where is my gender neutral marriage person?
Closing comment. I love the bay area. I have many things that I love about the people here and the diversity it brings. The opportunity to express and to just work on the acceptance of difference people. Part of that acceptance is first identify that there are differences. Then the true acceptance really form. With all that freedom in this place, also comes control and perseverance. I am sad to think that with a location that is filled with so many smart people per square mile, we can at time makes the dumbest choices. There were other place like bay area and they became history. Maybe the bay area needs to just be a little less bay area sometimes and start to see how life really is outside of the bay area. Harmony does not come from looking the other way, but instead it comes from looking at the differences and then realize the beauty that the differences bring.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Random thoughts
What is the logic in me? I been trying to understand myself as to why I seem to be indifferent about all the uncertainty that surrounds me. Let's face it, the economy is going down hill, people are getting angry at everything, cost of goods are getting out of hand, corruption flow through the nation, and the fruits of mother earth are getting scarce. All this impact me and being one person full of opinions and sympathy, I sometime take it personally. One of them being the possibility of getting laid off from my current job. At work you can sense fear in the air. For me I was fortunate enough to get a interview this week. Yet I decided to tell the hiring manager that I will not be meeting with him. In my mind I said it was too far away to travel to work and in a way it kinda is. But that day I was in the edge of going to the interview. In reality it wouldn't of taken that much effort since I was not doing anything important at that time anyways. One logic I had was that I like to find something closer to the city. But when I told my manager that I decline the interview, he was shocked by my lack of urgency. I have to wonder why I did not jump on the opportunity despite the fact that most people are trying to get interviews. The only thing I can think of right now is that my lack for passion. But that topic been debated many time that it is often overrated. So I must try to figure why I am passing on opportunities. Is it because I enjoy struggle? Or maybe I'm just lazy? I've yet to find out the reason and for myself I hope I understand it soon.
One other thing that I thought about today on my way back home were just people in general. Traffic as usually stacked up on the fwy. People were jockeying for position in order to get home a few seconds faster. I notice people were aggravated because traffic were going about 25mph. But then I notice a dog sticking half of his body outside the car window. I realize as superior beings on this earth, sometime maybe we should learn from the simpler beings. If you look at it, while everyone is getting angry, the dog is finding the opportunity that traffic is slow. To the dog, having the window blowing his face is probably one of the most satisfying thing in the world. I never seen dogs having sex, but I swear if you look at the Husky, he may as well be having an orgasm. Despite him being a domesticated pet, with a red neck owner, him sitting in a hot truck and him probably miss treated at times, the dog's expression can almost look as if he was in heaven. Nothing else matters. Things just flew away. Washed. So I often wonder how much of the conflict we have are self cultivated? Can it be that all you need to do is just try and stick your head out the window sometimes?
One other thing that I thought about today on my way back home were just people in general. Traffic as usually stacked up on the fwy. People were jockeying for position in order to get home a few seconds faster. I notice people were aggravated because traffic were going about 25mph. But then I notice a dog sticking half of his body outside the car window. I realize as superior beings on this earth, sometime maybe we should learn from the simpler beings. If you look at it, while everyone is getting angry, the dog is finding the opportunity that traffic is slow. To the dog, having the window blowing his face is probably one of the most satisfying thing in the world. I never seen dogs having sex, but I swear if you look at the Husky, he may as well be having an orgasm. Despite him being a domesticated pet, with a red neck owner, him sitting in a hot truck and him probably miss treated at times, the dog's expression can almost look as if he was in heaven. Nothing else matters. Things just flew away. Washed. So I often wonder how much of the conflict we have are self cultivated? Can it be that all you need to do is just try and stick your head out the window sometimes?
Monday, June 9, 2008
Random
"Men in general judge more by the sense of sight than by the sense of touch, because everyone can see but only very few can test by feeling. Everyone sees what you seem to be, few know what you really are; and those few do not dare to take a stand against the general opinion."
- Niccolo Machiavelli, The Prince
In my opinion Niccolo was a great leader and his ability to understand people is what made him good at what he does. Even today most of the leadership and help books still use his philosophy on how he rule his kingdom as their baseline for their research. I heard many things these couple of days which I've yet to understand why they stuck to me. Obviously this quote is one of them. I think the quote speak for itself. In general we seldom go against the flow because most of the time we were taught that the facts are in front of you and you should try to keep accord with everyone. We think that what we see or hear got to be the truth. But someone times maybe the true test can only be done by the sense of feeling. By uncover what is in front of us and to see beyond the obvious.
Then there is the one other thing that our brain do that makes our feeling questionable. It is called ANT (Automatic Negative Thought). Most people have it more than other. But almost everyone at one time or another have it. Interesting enough it is a weakness of the brain and yet sometime it may be your alert mechanism. The human brain is such an interesting creation.
With the complexity of the brain and the complexity of people is what makes world ever changing and ever so unpredictable. Yet we can't help it but to try to solve this puzzle since the existence of human. For instance, I saw this movie call Love and Sex on cable. It pretty much captured all the things people go through. You got the cynic, the over optimist, the avoider, and the floater. Whatever the person is, the interesting things is that human being in general at one time or another tries to mystify and demystify "Love and Sex". First is that people tend to mystify this topic. If your really look at it, you can't help but to. That is why there are books like "the road less travel" or "men are from mar and women are from Venus". Whatever the books are out there, we tend to enjoy that mystery and more so enjoy the act of trying to solve that mystery regardless of what happened in the past. Even for those that said they have given up, if you really talk to them, they really have not given up, they are just waiting for it to land on their lap. Otherwise they wouldn't have to say that they've given up. I don't know why I blog this, but I find that the film to be interesting because it took a look at the basic need of a human being with how we frequently use our 5 senses incorrectly.
Anyways I probably should be concentrating on finding a job or try to heal my aching back. Which reminds me, dam I'm old. But like I said, certain thing just stick on me and I have to write it down.
- Niccolo Machiavelli, The Prince
In my opinion Niccolo was a great leader and his ability to understand people is what made him good at what he does. Even today most of the leadership and help books still use his philosophy on how he rule his kingdom as their baseline for their research. I heard many things these couple of days which I've yet to understand why they stuck to me. Obviously this quote is one of them. I think the quote speak for itself. In general we seldom go against the flow because most of the time we were taught that the facts are in front of you and you should try to keep accord with everyone. We think that what we see or hear got to be the truth. But someone times maybe the true test can only be done by the sense of feeling. By uncover what is in front of us and to see beyond the obvious.
Then there is the one other thing that our brain do that makes our feeling questionable. It is called ANT (Automatic Negative Thought). Most people have it more than other. But almost everyone at one time or another have it. Interesting enough it is a weakness of the brain and yet sometime it may be your alert mechanism. The human brain is such an interesting creation.
With the complexity of the brain and the complexity of people is what makes world ever changing and ever so unpredictable. Yet we can't help it but to try to solve this puzzle since the existence of human. For instance, I saw this movie call Love and Sex on cable. It pretty much captured all the things people go through. You got the cynic, the over optimist, the avoider, and the floater. Whatever the person is, the interesting things is that human being in general at one time or another tries to mystify and demystify "Love and Sex". First is that people tend to mystify this topic. If your really look at it, you can't help but to. That is why there are books like "the road less travel" or "men are from mar and women are from Venus". Whatever the books are out there, we tend to enjoy that mystery and more so enjoy the act of trying to solve that mystery regardless of what happened in the past. Even for those that said they have given up, if you really talk to them, they really have not given up, they are just waiting for it to land on their lap. Otherwise they wouldn't have to say that they've given up. I don't know why I blog this, but I find that the film to be interesting because it took a look at the basic need of a human being with how we frequently use our 5 senses incorrectly.
Anyways I probably should be concentrating on finding a job or try to heal my aching back. Which reminds me, dam I'm old. But like I said, certain thing just stick on me and I have to write it down.
Friday, June 6, 2008
Gloom Friday
My first blog since my return back from Australia has to be one of complaints. Oh well at least I start writing again. But I can already sense this will be a negative blog.
What can I say except that today is Friday and it has been a bad day for me so far but it is only 1:30 in the afternoon. I started off this morning wanting to chat with D over gchat. Thought it be nice to talk to her since it has been awhile since I seen her and maybe by chatting with her it would make this month go by faster. But somehow we got to the topic of me have a "single" status on FB to how come Vlo didn't know about her. As with most things, it came unexpectedly and a slippery slop of doubts start flowing in. What do you say to things that you are not aware of? I mean I tend to keep things to myself about my personal life unless someone ask me directly or that the conversation merit it. I guess it is hard to understand for most people, but I am in certain ways very open to things and yet certain times I am very closed off. It may seem like it is hiding, but to me it is just that I don't think people care that much about what goes on with my personal life. You know some people can talk about themselves all day long and I'm not one of them. Anyways that is the sideways conversation of my morning.
Then as I am getting to work, I had that strange feeling it is getting off to a wrong way. So around 12 noon an unplanned department meeting was announced. We were officially told that the layoff will occur in the middle of July. I was thinking that is just great. I want to be laid off sooner so I can meet up with D, but instead I am getting it right afterwords. To me that is kinda funny and ironic. The reason is , if I do end up traveling but then what happens between D and I? That is what if I spend two months oversea in Vietnam or Japan. I like to go somewhere before I start working again, but that will bring 6 months that we are away from each other. I am torn about all of this and I have to think about what is to happen in the coming weeks.
Then the stock market has to go south. Man I did not need to loose money right now. I like to preserve capital if I can. But the stinky oil and devalue of the dollar is not helping. I am sure it is tough time for everyone, I just hope that everyone pulls through. But dam what is the deal with the timing of all this? Hahahah.
So some random observation over the last few weeks that I may as well just write down.
I still remember when I was walking through the park near the Opera House in Australia, I encounter a bunch of Tibetan monks. They had the usual attire, but somehow just their demeanor were different from the peace that I sense in righteous people. This may sound crazy, but when people are right, in the right place and has peace, that essence is exemplify in their presence. It does not need to be said or praised, you can just tell. But anyways they were loud and if you can image the old Chinese movies of drunken monks that was what I saw. So when I passed by they gave me a look that bothered me. I tend to smile when I meet people eye to eye. I met them eye to eye and they just looked at me up and down, stop smiling and continued on with their laughter after I passed by. I thought nothing of it at first until I continue my walk through the park. Until I got to a portion of the park where I found a large poster laying on the grass. No one was there, but it was a collage of pictures with people getting mutilated. Essentially it was saying how the Tibetan were being abused by the communist party. I have my own opinion about the whole topic. But then I got angry because I was enjoying my time in Australia. In a country where I came to visit to have a vacation and also I came to appreciate because people just enjoyed being alive. Multi-race, culture, religion live together in this land. They obviously have their differences, but they coexisted, somehow. If they were to individually look back each of their heritage have one time or another abuse each other in their own way. Now In the beautiful place with the awesome weather I have to see politically driven picture laid out in public. What if I didn't want to see it. What if I had kids and I did not want them to see those pictures. Do I not have a right? Anyways that bothered me because I think politics is like a coin and it always have two sides. People, remember when we were so quick to support the war in Iraq? Just look at history and it tells you that there are always another side to everything. Often time we are wrong.
Another blah blah blah by me. I was getting my haircut and I saw kids running around in the waiting area. The mother with 3 kids destroying the salon and have one more baking in her womb. All she said was stop it to the kids while they keep repeating the same thing. I was about to say, hey control your kids and stop having sex. Obviously you can't handle anymore. The kids were loud, jumping around, and giving me a headache. Usually I love kids, but hate bad kids, because I think it is a reflection of the parents. Then I blame the parents more the kids. I think if you think more scientifically, you give birth if that addition to the world makes things better no matter the magnitude, otherwise the offspring is the negative addition to the world. For instance her annoying kid just made me wonder if I want kids, even though I like kids. What did she do to me? Hahahaha.
Oh well I am not too thrilled about today and I will see how this weekend progress. Hopefully it gets better. Man how I miss hockey right now. Lol.
What can I say except that today is Friday and it has been a bad day for me so far but it is only 1:30 in the afternoon. I started off this morning wanting to chat with D over gchat. Thought it be nice to talk to her since it has been awhile since I seen her and maybe by chatting with her it would make this month go by faster. But somehow we got to the topic of me have a "single" status on FB to how come Vlo didn't know about her. As with most things, it came unexpectedly and a slippery slop of doubts start flowing in. What do you say to things that you are not aware of? I mean I tend to keep things to myself about my personal life unless someone ask me directly or that the conversation merit it. I guess it is hard to understand for most people, but I am in certain ways very open to things and yet certain times I am very closed off. It may seem like it is hiding, but to me it is just that I don't think people care that much about what goes on with my personal life. You know some people can talk about themselves all day long and I'm not one of them. Anyways that is the sideways conversation of my morning.
Then as I am getting to work, I had that strange feeling it is getting off to a wrong way. So around 12 noon an unplanned department meeting was announced. We were officially told that the layoff will occur in the middle of July. I was thinking that is just great. I want to be laid off sooner so I can meet up with D, but instead I am getting it right afterwords. To me that is kinda funny and ironic. The reason is , if I do end up traveling but then what happens between D and I? That is what if I spend two months oversea in Vietnam or Japan. I like to go somewhere before I start working again, but that will bring 6 months that we are away from each other. I am torn about all of this and I have to think about what is to happen in the coming weeks.
Then the stock market has to go south. Man I did not need to loose money right now. I like to preserve capital if I can. But the stinky oil and devalue of the dollar is not helping. I am sure it is tough time for everyone, I just hope that everyone pulls through. But dam what is the deal with the timing of all this? Hahahah.
So some random observation over the last few weeks that I may as well just write down.
I still remember when I was walking through the park near the Opera House in Australia, I encounter a bunch of Tibetan monks. They had the usual attire, but somehow just their demeanor were different from the peace that I sense in righteous people. This may sound crazy, but when people are right, in the right place and has peace, that essence is exemplify in their presence. It does not need to be said or praised, you can just tell. But anyways they were loud and if you can image the old Chinese movies of drunken monks that was what I saw. So when I passed by they gave me a look that bothered me. I tend to smile when I meet people eye to eye. I met them eye to eye and they just looked at me up and down, stop smiling and continued on with their laughter after I passed by. I thought nothing of it at first until I continue my walk through the park. Until I got to a portion of the park where I found a large poster laying on the grass. No one was there, but it was a collage of pictures with people getting mutilated. Essentially it was saying how the Tibetan were being abused by the communist party. I have my own opinion about the whole topic. But then I got angry because I was enjoying my time in Australia. In a country where I came to visit to have a vacation and also I came to appreciate because people just enjoyed being alive. Multi-race, culture, religion live together in this land. They obviously have their differences, but they coexisted, somehow. If they were to individually look back each of their heritage have one time or another abuse each other in their own way. Now In the beautiful place with the awesome weather I have to see politically driven picture laid out in public. What if I didn't want to see it. What if I had kids and I did not want them to see those pictures. Do I not have a right? Anyways that bothered me because I think politics is like a coin and it always have two sides. People, remember when we were so quick to support the war in Iraq? Just look at history and it tells you that there are always another side to everything. Often time we are wrong.
Another blah blah blah by me. I was getting my haircut and I saw kids running around in the waiting area. The mother with 3 kids destroying the salon and have one more baking in her womb. All she said was stop it to the kids while they keep repeating the same thing. I was about to say, hey control your kids and stop having sex. Obviously you can't handle anymore. The kids were loud, jumping around, and giving me a headache. Usually I love kids, but hate bad kids, because I think it is a reflection of the parents. Then I blame the parents more the kids. I think if you think more scientifically, you give birth if that addition to the world makes things better no matter the magnitude, otherwise the offspring is the negative addition to the world. For instance her annoying kid just made me wonder if I want kids, even though I like kids. What did she do to me? Hahahaha.
Oh well I am not too thrilled about today and I will see how this weekend progress. Hopefully it gets better. Man how I miss hockey right now. Lol.
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