Random thoughts

What is the logic in me? I been trying to understand myself as to why I seem to be indifferent about all the uncertainty that surrounds me. Let's face it, the economy is going down hill, people are getting angry at everything, cost of goods are getting out of hand, corruption flow through the nation, and the fruits of mother earth are getting scarce. All this impact me and being one person full of opinions and sympathy, I sometime take it personally. One of them being the possibility of getting laid off from my current job. At work you can sense fear in the air. For me I was fortunate enough to get a interview this week. Yet I decided to tell the hiring manager that I will not be meeting with him. In my mind I said it was too far away to travel to work and in a way it kinda is. But that day I was in the edge of going to the interview. In reality it wouldn't of taken that much effort since I was not doing anything important at that time anyways. One logic I had was that I like to find something closer to the city. But when I told my manager that I decline the interview, he was shocked by my lack of urgency. I have to wonder why I did not jump on the opportunity despite the fact that most people are trying to get interviews. The only thing I can think of right now is that my lack for passion. But that topic been debated many time that it is often overrated. So I must try to figure why I am passing on opportunities. Is it because I enjoy struggle? Or maybe I'm just lazy? I've yet to find out the reason and for myself I hope I understand it soon.

One other thing that I thought about today on my way back home were just people in general. Traffic as usually stacked up on the fwy. People were jockeying for position in order to get home a few seconds faster. I notice people were aggravated because traffic were going about 25mph. But then I notice a dog sticking half of his body outside the car window. I realize as superior beings on this earth, sometime maybe we should learn from the simpler beings. If you look at it, while everyone is getting angry, the dog is finding the opportunity that traffic is slow. To the dog, having the window blowing his face is probably one of the most satisfying thing in the world. I never seen dogs having sex, but I swear if you look at the Husky, he may as well be having an orgasm. Despite him being a domesticated pet, with a red neck owner, him sitting in a hot truck and him probably miss treated at times, the dog's expression can almost look as if he was in heaven. Nothing else matters. Things just flew away. Washed. So I often wonder how much of the conflict we have are self cultivated? Can it be that all you need to do is just try and stick your head out the window sometimes?