For the Thanksgiving holiday I decided to drive down LA for the long weekend. It is funny how much I think when I have 5+ hours of staring at the rear lights of cars. But I am typing this on my laptop as I am making my second drive to Vegas. Yes this few days I would of traveled over 600+ miles. But then again it is during these times that a few things that comes to mind of this wanderer.
First thought: A life friendship detoured. This week I heard details of D's friendship with T went ultimately unpleasant for the both people. It is rather sad I think and in so many ways it is unfair. But yet it is also just a part of life that brings the unpredictable to everyone of us. Since this is the holiday season, I am reminded that it is those unpredictable things in life are what we should be thankful for. Life is about remembering the memories that are good and as well as those that were the bad. I think friends is a gift and a long lasting friendship is a gem. Often time the difficult things that plague a beautiful friendship is often the same thing that turn any relationships astray. For instance, D and T been friends for a long time. Long enough that an infant can become a teenage. In very much the same way, the morphisms of life also makes it difficult for friendship to continue or just sustain. People come into a person's life and it change who s/he is and how s/he treats other people. The most difficult part is knowing what to do about that nature's formula. Whether the change that just happened is permanent or not, does not matter. The thing is that we changed once it enters our life. So many times we are so resistant to change. The change that happens in our friends' life, in our life and in family's life. I think majority of the time, people can say and probably diagnosis how much the other person has changed and can come up with a reason or even a highly logical solution. But the most difficult part and often overlooked is the change with one's self that took place or that needed to take place. As a child we tend to look at things as one. Understand that the origin and then learn to use our developed deductive reasoning to trace to the end. I am not sure if life is just that simple? The complexity and also the beauty of life is that it is a cumulative of many things and never ever just one. That is how life works and maybe why very often it defy our logic. This is an alchemist's dream. Life's DNA structure requires all the x and y factors to make it work. That is why it is so difficult to understand life sometimes and for some people may just declare it a mystery. Because life changes so often, maybe we shouldn't weight too much on the changes that come with friendship, but instead embrace that it is different and learn to navigate it. In the famous word of fashion designer Tim Gunn, "Make it Work".
Second thought: Letting go is sometime so hard to do. I can think of how this applies to so many things. I think we constantly, or even just can't resist but to look back how things was. Somehow we may use the past to build the case that this is how it should be for the future. But in reality how reasonable is that? When is it time to let go? I see that in my mom and her
relationship with her children. Every time I go back home I feel like I'm going back in time to my childhood days. Sometime the letting go is not just needed for her, but for me as well. Childhood memories are sometimes hard to erase, difficult to deal with and maybe sometime I just try to do the best with what I got so far. I believe that all family has it share of sadness and as well as happiness. But what still puzzle me til this day is my inability to not being able put things behind me. I am handicapped or inapt in that matter. All logic says that the past is the past and the future is determine by what you start doing today. Yet what if when I return I get reminded of the past. Maybe that is why I tend to get the sense of being lost when I am back at home. I see this not so much as my family burden but my own, because at what point do I let go or at what point can it not be a reason. Could it be that all this time I thought that the emotional high maintenance that I was experiencing is actually slowly transferring to me? No doubt it is a bit scary to think that all these years there are still unresolved issues. I am bipolar in the sense that when I am home I get that sudden comfort that I couldn't get anywhere else except being back in what I once know. Then there is the other side. I am sadden to see that I still struggle with many things even though I have in the past been able to having things distract me. As I forecast, I do know that I have another hurdle to leap in the coming months, then we will see how that may bring things back in peace. I know that I can resolve things as a resolution requires more than one person. I do know what need to be done by me, but it is a matter of getting to that medium of making it work for myself spiritually. The next stage should be interesting, as I know that it is approaching. To think of it, would anybody who really know me expect me to do it any other way? To quote Dr. Chopra:
Option 1) Suffering is an Opportunity to happiness. Sharing your joy. Live in the present moment.
Option 2) Suffering is not necessary if you reach happiness first. By reaching your consciousness and enlightenment.
Hmmmm....I wonder which one am I choosing right now?
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
Mad Market
Dam I can't believe I missed the jump. I thought the bounce was coming, but didn't anticipate that people would react that quickly, especially over the government giving away more money for a failing bank and for Obama doing nothing except to nominate people for positions. If that is the case then these people that he nominated must have more control over the economy than the rest of the billions of people in this world.
This just mean that people are looking for good news and reason to put money back into stocks. Yes some say the market is a 6 month forward indicator or the economy. But that still does not make sense since almost everyone is saying this mess MAYBE over in a year or so. Although no material evidence that signal an improvement in economy, the stock market thinks so nevertheless. That is why I think that the stock market is unfair for the regular traders. There is manipulation there, just that nobody willing to look at it since it brings many people down to equal level. If we were to give equal playing field, then wealth creation gets that much harder for those banks. In my opinion the banks don't get screwed even though it fail. People that worked there makes more money than they should does not get effected by this. But for some reason, the government thinks bailing out one bank equate to saving the economy. Well the last time I checked, there were other banks out there. At one point, Citibank was a small bank. Then why are they getting preferential treatment now as compare to the Lehman or the thrifts that failed? Us, normal citizen will never really knows. But if you look at the background of Obama's economic team then you would see why many of the larger banks may get bailed out or be in favored in the coming future.
With this push up in market over the last two days has led me to believe that a lot of speculation is being put into the market. As such speculation that we say for oil and gas, I got to think that some more volatility is ahead of us. I still believe that the norm should be below 8000 until June. We will see what will happen, since most people would find me crazy for making such predictions. But dam, all that money that I missed out. Especially say bye to that TV and computer that I wanted. Well life can be worse.
This just mean that people are looking for good news and reason to put money back into stocks. Yes some say the market is a 6 month forward indicator or the economy. But that still does not make sense since almost everyone is saying this mess MAYBE over in a year or so. Although no material evidence that signal an improvement in economy, the stock market thinks so nevertheless. That is why I think that the stock market is unfair for the regular traders. There is manipulation there, just that nobody willing to look at it since it brings many people down to equal level. If we were to give equal playing field, then wealth creation gets that much harder for those banks. In my opinion the banks don't get screwed even though it fail. People that worked there makes more money than they should does not get effected by this. But for some reason, the government thinks bailing out one bank equate to saving the economy. Well the last time I checked, there were other banks out there. At one point, Citibank was a small bank. Then why are they getting preferential treatment now as compare to the Lehman or the thrifts that failed? Us, normal citizen will never really knows. But if you look at the background of Obama's economic team then you would see why many of the larger banks may get bailed out or be in favored in the coming future.
With this push up in market over the last two days has led me to believe that a lot of speculation is being put into the market. As such speculation that we say for oil and gas, I got to think that some more volatility is ahead of us. I still believe that the norm should be below 8000 until June. We will see what will happen, since most people would find me crazy for making such predictions. But dam, all that money that I missed out. Especially say bye to that TV and computer that I wanted. Well life can be worse.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Moonlight Profession
Two things comes to mind as I sit here at my desk not doing much except to stare at the computer screen and continue to look at my watch to see if it is 5 yet. When I am bored I get very uneasy about things and yet also I find it entertaining that currently I am excited most about is playing basketball today. Like I said before, when a man understand the value of simple things, then he himself just increased his net worth by that one percent.
Stock Market - well it closed below 8000 today. Sometime I hate to be right, because this is also hurting my portfolio tremendously. But the fact is that you can't mess with the economic inertia. I often have to stand aside and look at things objectively. Often times that conflicts with my personal emotional ties, the majority view, and often times leads to tension between the other person. So when I do take the time to be objective I come to conflict with another person. In sociology it is said that people tend not to like people who disagree with them. They tend to feel like it is a good conversation when they do all the talking and you agree. But this condition is just human behavior and having confrontation is my other behavior, I guess that goes with the territory. But I digress. The market is heading lower, but how low to be honest I don't know. If you look at the overall all economy, I think we will see it slide down until 2013. But that does not mean the stock market will slide the same way. Since I don't know how far it will slide yet (the market), then I would say I think I've identify the resting points (or often termed as the entry points) to have opportunity to buy. I think when we see the Dow at 7600 then it is time to accumulate some stocks again. Again some stocks. I think we will see a temporary rally in January through March. Then a drop in May to July of 2009. So with that vague remark, I think opportunity to buy will come after Thanksgiving, ride the Obama hope wave, slide with the reality by selling, and then looks for more entry points. But I think the bottom line is that the capital model that the US been using and in many ways other country have model themselves are failing. I think a new model will emerge with many of its similarity from the old model, but less on the emphasis of wealth generation through debt. Also during the 2013 or 214 new industry will emerge as leaders which should in many ways leads to a good period of real growth. So from the opinion and brain dump of this wannabe trader, futurist, columnist and meteorologist, I say: Put on your rain coats because it will be raining daggers. Don't try to catch the daggers, but there are possible chance of area for good profits when the cloud pass through. Assure we are still in a storm, but as always there is green sunny days ahead.
My Rights - so who gets to says those two words? I feel that people often use those words too loosely. When someone go against the masses, then he or she get ridiculed. So what about his rights to think differently. I live in the bay area, the ultra super liberal capital of the world, if not the universe. I think it has changed in many ways opposite of what made it so great in the years pass. Be liberal was allowing the other possibilities to flow. The beauty of this place was once the ability to be different and still be accepted. I think that now to be a local person in the bay area you have to be a liberal that has to follow the same thought. Believe in the same political party, vote for the same proposition, be an intellectual and read the same books, or just make sure you feel sorry for those who are less fortunate, otherwise you are evil. This is a making of a you against us mentality and I notice it growing over the years. I think when you start noticing that everyone is pretty much the same, then you got to question who's rights are we oppressing? Which voice is not being heard or even considered? I see that to allow the different was what made the liberal movement so attractive. It drew a different ways in which we do things. It brought innovation. From innovation it brought economic prosperity. From that simple idea of that everybody has rights, not that it is just about my rights, you foster growth with a society and bring evolution to humanity. So this is my right to speak and rant and so I did. I think now it is a time whether nature/god/Dali lama/mother earth/Obama/liberal/Democrat/karma is becoming the equalizer. Economic changes, climate changes, social changes, and much other changes are in the works. So we will not like some of these changes very much and others we will. Bottom line is that we are just pieces of this puzzle, don't make your right (you) more than what it really is worth. Respect yourself, but respect others as well.
Stock Market - well it closed below 8000 today. Sometime I hate to be right, because this is also hurting my portfolio tremendously. But the fact is that you can't mess with the economic inertia. I often have to stand aside and look at things objectively. Often times that conflicts with my personal emotional ties, the majority view, and often times leads to tension between the other person. So when I do take the time to be objective I come to conflict with another person. In sociology it is said that people tend not to like people who disagree with them. They tend to feel like it is a good conversation when they do all the talking and you agree. But this condition is just human behavior and having confrontation is my other behavior, I guess that goes with the territory. But I digress. The market is heading lower, but how low to be honest I don't know. If you look at the overall all economy, I think we will see it slide down until 2013. But that does not mean the stock market will slide the same way. Since I don't know how far it will slide yet (the market), then I would say I think I've identify the resting points (or often termed as the entry points) to have opportunity to buy. I think when we see the Dow at 7600 then it is time to accumulate some stocks again. Again some stocks. I think we will see a temporary rally in January through March. Then a drop in May to July of 2009. So with that vague remark, I think opportunity to buy will come after Thanksgiving, ride the Obama hope wave, slide with the reality by selling, and then looks for more entry points. But I think the bottom line is that the capital model that the US been using and in many ways other country have model themselves are failing. I think a new model will emerge with many of its similarity from the old model, but less on the emphasis of wealth generation through debt. Also during the 2013 or 214 new industry will emerge as leaders which should in many ways leads to a good period of real growth. So from the opinion and brain dump of this wannabe trader, futurist, columnist and meteorologist, I say: Put on your rain coats because it will be raining daggers. Don't try to catch the daggers, but there are possible chance of area for good profits when the cloud pass through. Assure we are still in a storm, but as always there is green sunny days ahead.
My Rights - so who gets to says those two words? I feel that people often use those words too loosely. When someone go against the masses, then he or she get ridiculed. So what about his rights to think differently. I live in the bay area, the ultra super liberal capital of the world, if not the universe. I think it has changed in many ways opposite of what made it so great in the years pass. Be liberal was allowing the other possibilities to flow. The beauty of this place was once the ability to be different and still be accepted. I think that now to be a local person in the bay area you have to be a liberal that has to follow the same thought. Believe in the same political party, vote for the same proposition, be an intellectual and read the same books, or just make sure you feel sorry for those who are less fortunate, otherwise you are evil. This is a making of a you against us mentality and I notice it growing over the years. I think when you start noticing that everyone is pretty much the same, then you got to question who's rights are we oppressing? Which voice is not being heard or even considered? I see that to allow the different was what made the liberal movement so attractive. It drew a different ways in which we do things. It brought innovation. From innovation it brought economic prosperity. From that simple idea of that everybody has rights, not that it is just about my rights, you foster growth with a society and bring evolution to humanity. So this is my right to speak and rant and so I did. I think now it is a time whether nature/god/Dali lama/mother earth/Obama/liberal/Democrat/karma is becoming the equalizer. Economic changes, climate changes, social changes, and much other changes are in the works. So we will not like some of these changes very much and others we will. Bottom line is that we are just pieces of this puzzle, don't make your right (you) more than what it really is worth. Respect yourself, but respect others as well.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
8 is not a lucky number
Went to the market today and at the main intersection were both sides of proposition 8. You can see this issue is close to every one's heart. I think it is a tough proposition to be say whether you support it or not. On the very first instinct you think it would that if anything to do with a person's right to do something, then we should back that right. On the other hand what about the right of the others who wants to keep marriage as between a man and a woman. I would be lying if I said I am dead set on which side. I have a dear aunt that I care about who is a lesbian and yet I have also my Christian up bring. Yet also I have my overall just notice of the world around me. I guess it is one of those topic really no one win. Ever since this proposition I had reason to support and then to go against proposition 8. Today I have one that I figure I put in writing. If I was a parent and if I were to talk to my kid about sex and the birds and the bees, then what would I say as to when s/he should have sex. Obviously I can say only to have sex after marriage. But I think I will strongly say s/he should only have a baby when s/he is married. So in that sense, I wonder if that is a part of other things that marriage serve to this society. Lets just stop thinking about the 'self' for one second and then pause to ask what does marriage do for a society? What was its purpose and what was the original intent. If the argument is to say well I would encourage the kid to not think about having kids, then that would be absurd. Then when two people love to one another should it always lead to marriage? That question and the follow up questions is what makes this such a tough question. The conservative in me tells me that marriage was an idea between a woman and a man. When the gay/lesbian kid was born s/he identified marriage as a man and a woman. Otherwise s/he would not exist. Yet what about the rights of a human to pursue the desire to be with someone with full commitment by contractual commitment in the court of law. I am go back and forth. So I often wonder in the purpose of the law and the fairness for everyone, what if we just name same sex union with the desire to commit themselves in the court of law as something else? Give it another name. After that build things around it. We have law for different countries, we have law for different states, why not for this? Well this blog if anyone read it will upset the reader. But this is just my opinion or more or less my observation. I think I often don't stand on just one side, but to see that not one side or one belief can work in this world. If nothing else I learn from my travels, is that the most beautiful thing in this world is the miracle of having rigidness and also freewill exist in one small planet.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
TV Guide
Observation for today:
Frank TV - a show where the main comedian does all sorts of impersonation of famous people. One of his most notorious character is president Bush. As a new season starts he faces with a tough decision illustrating the change coming in political climate both in Washington and in the main streets of America.
Obviously and as the polls suggest, Obama will most likely become the next president. In many ways that signifies many accomplishments from the changes in the past and will also introduce the changes that will occur in America in the future. Whether that change is favorable or not we will see and it will be recorded. Now it raises an interesting situation. For instance should Frank TV continue to make fun and impersonate our future president Obama? If he does choose to do so, how will people react when a white man color him self to make fun of the first black president? Now on the other hand, if he bring in another comedian such as Dave Chappelle to do the president impersonation, then it probably would avoid such drama, but yet does it raise the question whether the freedom and rights that so many American these day preach about is compromised? If we were to accept change does that go both ways? Is rights available to everyone, even those that may not be political correct at this moment in time? We all gotten move clever at using catch phrases and words to bring credit to our arguments. But let's be real, maybe we just gotten cleaver at abusing those words in the propositions, laws, and campaign that we see today. In any case, I think yes it is just a show, but it may just serve a little glimpse of what's to come. Whether spoken out loud or not, the topic will now be more highlight and be forced to be brought out. Most importantly, I think how we handle and manage the change ahead may determine whether we bring up the benefit or the most common draw back and pitfall with change. With those that advocate change, how do they assure that the transitions does not take us backward? I hope things get followed through. I have seen over and over again where people does a good job of argument for change but yet does not follow through to its completion. Regardless how this story plays out, I think we are currently living in historical time and should be glad that we get to live it versus reading it in a book. Let just say we are living history and it is indeed an exciting time.
Frank TV - a show where the main comedian does all sorts of impersonation of famous people. One of his most notorious character is president Bush. As a new season starts he faces with a tough decision illustrating the change coming in political climate both in Washington and in the main streets of America.
Obviously and as the polls suggest, Obama will most likely become the next president. In many ways that signifies many accomplishments from the changes in the past and will also introduce the changes that will occur in America in the future. Whether that change is favorable or not we will see and it will be recorded. Now it raises an interesting situation. For instance should Frank TV continue to make fun and impersonate our future president Obama? If he does choose to do so, how will people react when a white man color him self to make fun of the first black president? Now on the other hand, if he bring in another comedian such as Dave Chappelle to do the president impersonation, then it probably would avoid such drama, but yet does it raise the question whether the freedom and rights that so many American these day preach about is compromised? If we were to accept change does that go both ways? Is rights available to everyone, even those that may not be political correct at this moment in time? We all gotten move clever at using catch phrases and words to bring credit to our arguments. But let's be real, maybe we just gotten cleaver at abusing those words in the propositions, laws, and campaign that we see today. In any case, I think yes it is just a show, but it may just serve a little glimpse of what's to come. Whether spoken out loud or not, the topic will now be more highlight and be forced to be brought out. Most importantly, I think how we handle and manage the change ahead may determine whether we bring up the benefit or the most common draw back and pitfall with change. With those that advocate change, how do they assure that the transitions does not take us backward? I hope things get followed through. I have seen over and over again where people does a good job of argument for change but yet does not follow through to its completion. Regardless how this story plays out, I think we are currently living in historical time and should be glad that we get to live it versus reading it in a book. Let just say we are living history and it is indeed an exciting time.
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