Unorganized

I wonder if I ever blog when I have good things to say or positive thoughts to flow out. The truth the matter is that I have a whole flux of emotions day by day as well as hour by hour. It is quiet strange but I can't remember the last time I was completely mindless, without cross directional thought. It seems to me I always feel the need to overlay thoughhts with additional thoughts and those thoughts are cross referenced with other thoughts. All are related in minor ways, while other do not at first, but eventually do. With that said, I guess this couple of days been a bit unorganized for me. I guess that would be my theme for this blog. In case it was not obvious already. When I have this moment of unorganize ramped thought I know that something is troubling me or that my intuition is telling me that something is about to happen. It is a no brainer I guess that this year is about change, but then I not sure if I completely understand it yet, emotionally that is. So from what I know this moment, I know that the economy is looking to be in bad shape and my worse feeling may be coming to reality. I blogged a few months back about how the market will reach the mid 7K mark and that the O factor to the market. Emotionally I hope that I was wrong and that the hope for change can spark something. Logically, that just does not seems to make any senses and also indicated a real danger to be over optimitic and rely on hope. Now what we are getting into is the damamge of the numbers or what we call the economy of the world, but what is more concerning for me now is that we are approaching close to the emotional damage of people's psychy. Those two factors make it very difficult to navigate especially it does take a lot of coordination of the government, the people and other organization, which surprised me that Bill C made the right observation aboutt. Well the next few weeks are very important time for everyone, not sure if people know it, but that defines the rythem of the economy for the next 2 years.

Along with that thought, I feel that it is tough to stand out and be different or not adher to the majority. At work I've been right about the things that need to be done or undone. Yet in doing so I've offended a few people. It seems like somehow the past couple of days, I had to be correcting mistake of other people. Usually when you do that, even though you are right, you end up making enemies, which makes it so wrong. That goes the same thing with what I feel about other things, such as big O, social systems, relationships, friends, and all other things. I obtain feeling and thought where sometime I wish I am wrong about, because sometime it is just easier if you do not know. That way you can at least be wrong together, where as the opposite, it is hard to be right and to have to prove it as well as stick to what you believe is correct. By no means do I think I know everything. I just feel that these days it seems like being right actually make me feel so wrong. It seems like fighting been my theme for 2009 so far. Maybe the horn is getting stick to things that usually it does not get stuck to. Whatever it is, confrontation sucks.