I'm sad to see how citizens are the actual victims from the irresponsible practices of world politics. Nobody can ignore the news that continue to circulate between US and China. Each country publish its exaggerated truth, and each one uses the media to recruit more to its herd. I see it because I am fortunate to monitor both counties by living in both continents as well as receive news in dual languages. It makes me sick to see how now their higher education institutions became sell out to political agenda. What is more disturbing to me is the widening gap between cultures and races that are forming in silence. Everyone is becoming more political, more silent to their real agenda, building the herd mentality, and stepping back to the progress made in the last 30 years. When you look through comments about US and China you can see the racial and nationalistic tension brewing. What is most disturbing to me is that that each country's citizens play important roles within one another. So what should we look out for?
- With the talk about currency manipulation and mud slinging, beware of imperialism. Historically this leads to war, racism, and a step back in humanity.
- Become leaders of this world and not fall into the trap of being a leader of a world. Regardless the economic power, social advancement is the most important thing. A country is not much more than just a memory until it can advance to a civilized society where it bring forward thinking movement in humanity and beyond its geographic locations.
- Nothing is fair and nothing is forever. Stop using fair as a tool to feed hostility. Nothing is taken away for free as long as there is a free market. Whether that free market favor you or not has nothing to do with fair. Always keeping opinion out of sight does now create harmony. It just brew for another revolution. Allow the cultural evolution to occur.
- Don't follow the herd. The rich and abundance of information can be a blessing as well as a curse. If there was ever a real objective of journalism, it is to deliver no answers but instead explore the possibilities.
- Lastly, listen to mother earth. What is beyond the politic is the fact that earth is the same house that all countries operate under. If politics is about managing and direct the change, then maybe we should start observing the change in the foundation of the house.
All the things above may seem like a pie in the sky in regards to politics. But I think in today's politics it is creating separatist. Maybe it is the current stigma of the US administration or maybe it is the communist foundation of China, but regardless the reason, the web is one place where it can be use the prevent the countries to revert by to their old ways.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
Spain
My trip is approximately into its 11th day with majority of time D guiding me through Spain. All together it is a wonderful country. The beauty of travel for me is to see stories play out in real life. Observing someone you see during lunch or just explore the city that shapes the people around it. There is something interesting about the action of wondering because you learn the appreciation of the things that a person have and redesign the things that you want. It s a continue cycle of course. Everyone choose a path, but when I am at another country it gives me the freedom to wonder what if I lived there and how would my daily life be if I wasn’t me? It is difficult to explain, but in a certain way I think this simple exercise gives you a piece of the answer to that ever lasting question of “what is the meaning of life”.
So my impression of Spain is that people don’t work. You see many people just observe. I can see how a person would love this place because in each one of us, we want to take time off and to do just that. Just too bad we been told all of our lives to wait until we are old and in retirement so we can wonder about dying. So Spain fulfills that part of me, the acceptance and appreciation of the simpler things. Such examples are in their food. They are simply made and yet so delicious. If you are a believer in being a purest, you will come to learn to love their food. Its culinary attempts reminds me a lot about Japanese food where you take the pure flavor of the food and use the spices along with other complementary ingredients to bring that flavor out to the consumer. Yet the funny thing about Spain is that with its simple food, its inverse is its complex artists. I came to appreciate Dali and Gaudi during the trip. They are masters during their own time and beyond. Many people attempt to imitate but you can tell the ones who fall short. Talented people’s mind is a bit scary though. It is very true; geniuses tread on the edge of sanity and craziness. So bottom line Spain is a great place. It is better when you go with your girlfriend. Because I think to take the theme from the food, art, people, and places that we visited this past 11 days, a relationship encompass just the ability to extract out the wonderful flavor of the simpler things and while learn to make it work while appreciate the insanity of it all.
So my impression of Spain is that people don’t work. You see many people just observe. I can see how a person would love this place because in each one of us, we want to take time off and to do just that. Just too bad we been told all of our lives to wait until we are old and in retirement so we can wonder about dying. So Spain fulfills that part of me, the acceptance and appreciation of the simpler things. Such examples are in their food. They are simply made and yet so delicious. If you are a believer in being a purest, you will come to learn to love their food. Its culinary attempts reminds me a lot about Japanese food where you take the pure flavor of the food and use the spices along with other complementary ingredients to bring that flavor out to the consumer. Yet the funny thing about Spain is that with its simple food, its inverse is its complex artists. I came to appreciate Dali and Gaudi during the trip. They are masters during their own time and beyond. Many people attempt to imitate but you can tell the ones who fall short. Talented people’s mind is a bit scary though. It is very true; geniuses tread on the edge of sanity and craziness. So bottom line Spain is a great place. It is better when you go with your girlfriend. Because I think to take the theme from the food, art, people, and places that we visited this past 11 days, a relationship encompass just the ability to extract out the wonderful flavor of the simpler things and while learn to make it work while appreciate the insanity of it all.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Mid year review
I remember I blogged about this a year ago. My fears, my criticism, and just my observation. So who benefit from the bailout? So who continue to hurt from it? How much will people continue to allow themselves of the bias and close to propaganda writings that are out there. Imagine how much energy were used to build that perception and the creation of the Obama zombies.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20100714/ap_on_bi_ge/us_bailout_watchdog_small_banks
I mean let's not look at the political party, not the color of his skin. If you were to judge him by what he has done what score would you give him? Now imagine if Bush did the same exact things, what points would you give him? So far the difference I see between him and Bush is really he is a better speaker. I am still waiting to see if he can can walk the talk. But the most that I am disappointed about is how the truth go hidden and how intelligent young American became the Obama zombies.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20100714/ap_on_bi_ge/us_bailout_watchdog_small_banks
I mean let's not look at the political party, not the color of his skin. If you were to judge him by what he has done what score would you give him? Now imagine if Bush did the same exact things, what points would you give him? So far the difference I see between him and Bush is really he is a better speaker. I am still waiting to see if he can can walk the talk. But the most that I am disappointed about is how the truth go hidden and how intelligent young American became the Obama zombies.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Manic Monday
Sometime you just don't know when nor you have enough time to know. I recently found out a friend lost her whole family during the July 4th weekend vacation in Arizona. Her mother and father were both killed in a car accident. The car rolled and a big rig smash the car into the wall. Her sister and cousin survived the accident, as the sister still remain in critical condition. She is now by her side with her sister as she prays for a quick recovery. What is sad about all this is that she is only 23 years old, with a kid and trying to be a part time student while working at the gym. I feel sad to see bad things have to happen to good people.
So I wonder what does one do when that happens to him. It is never an easy time for a person spiritually as well as financially when something that tragic occurs. But I think without going more details of what happened, you have to start thinking that life is about the unpredictable. You can never really ever say all you have to say when someone leaves. That is just impossible because it would be too much stress for any two parties when they have to do that every time they depart each other. Yet of course being human beings, we always wish we could of said more or do more. I think that is a natural reactive thought after something tragic. But I think the most important thing about all this, being this as incredibly simplistic, is to try not the think about what was lost, should have, or could have, but instead remember why you remember the time you spent with that person while he or she was alive. I believe when someone can have memory of an event or of a person, those memories are the bricks that builds that house that keep the spirit. In the same alignment that spirit feeds into a person's soul. Because of those correlations, as long as you have memory of that person, he or she will always be connected to your soul. That's why our soul evolve as memories are pour into it. So what is the bottom line? There is no if, should, or need. It is just about construction. The construction of you. That is why in most spiritual texts and religions, they always talks about how every human being must believe and do have a place in this world. Some leave a bit early some leave a bit later. But all are the construct of each other's soul.
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There are certain incidents that just make my skin craw. Yesterday, as we were waiting for our table seating, I saw a group of friends, probably in high school, waiting for a table. There was an out spoken girl who was Asian. She was definitely an extrovert with full of opinions that made sure everyone heard her. But what is annoying part of that encounter was her constant stab and making fun of herself as an Asian and being Asian. This incident is very common and happens all the time. I begin to wonder if there is any other race that would make fun of his or her own race like the way a lot of Asian do. I know you hear about racial jokes, usually done on stage, but for some reason Asians make it so public and with so little thought. I wonder why? As intelligent or intellectual human beings, don't you have something more to say? If other people can see the wrong in do such things, why not Asians? You often hear about Asian guys not having self confidence. In my opinion, any Asian who makes fun of Asians lack that self confidence. Ironically those are the same Asians who refuse to be with or date other Asians and call other Asian lack of confidence or boring. Man the oxymoron. Maybe just the moron. Anyhow, I was that close to give her my two cents about what she was doing.
So I wonder what does one do when that happens to him. It is never an easy time for a person spiritually as well as financially when something that tragic occurs. But I think without going more details of what happened, you have to start thinking that life is about the unpredictable. You can never really ever say all you have to say when someone leaves. That is just impossible because it would be too much stress for any two parties when they have to do that every time they depart each other. Yet of course being human beings, we always wish we could of said more or do more. I think that is a natural reactive thought after something tragic. But I think the most important thing about all this, being this as incredibly simplistic, is to try not the think about what was lost, should have, or could have, but instead remember why you remember the time you spent with that person while he or she was alive. I believe when someone can have memory of an event or of a person, those memories are the bricks that builds that house that keep the spirit. In the same alignment that spirit feeds into a person's soul. Because of those correlations, as long as you have memory of that person, he or she will always be connected to your soul. That's why our soul evolve as memories are pour into it. So what is the bottom line? There is no if, should, or need. It is just about construction. The construction of you. That is why in most spiritual texts and religions, they always talks about how every human being must believe and do have a place in this world. Some leave a bit early some leave a bit later. But all are the construct of each other's soul.
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There are certain incidents that just make my skin craw. Yesterday, as we were waiting for our table seating, I saw a group of friends, probably in high school, waiting for a table. There was an out spoken girl who was Asian. She was definitely an extrovert with full of opinions that made sure everyone heard her. But what is annoying part of that encounter was her constant stab and making fun of herself as an Asian and being Asian. This incident is very common and happens all the time. I begin to wonder if there is any other race that would make fun of his or her own race like the way a lot of Asian do. I know you hear about racial jokes, usually done on stage, but for some reason Asians make it so public and with so little thought. I wonder why? As intelligent or intellectual human beings, don't you have something more to say? If other people can see the wrong in do such things, why not Asians? You often hear about Asian guys not having self confidence. In my opinion, any Asian who makes fun of Asians lack that self confidence. Ironically those are the same Asians who refuse to be with or date other Asians and call other Asian lack of confidence or boring. Man the oxymoron. Maybe just the moron. Anyhow, I was that close to give her my two cents about what she was doing.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Air is thin at 12000 feet
I spent my day off preparing a few things as my OCD schedule dictates my schedule to wind down this month. This evening I begin my post mortem for the first weekend of July.
One is irony. Without disclosing my age, I had a recollection of my emotions in between the age of 3 to 7. That feeling of being an orphan was mainly from not knowing where my father was and my mother was away in the states. For some weird universal reason, I am left with being passed as responsibility to different people. Don't give me wrong, I am grateful my great grandmother and my grand mother were there for me during that time. But you spend your birthdays wondering where are my parents? A bit confused about the concept of family and most of all in a very weird way at that age you spent the nights question what is the norm. Now, decades later, I am planning to head back to Asia where I began my childhood and feel a bit like how I was when I was 6. The family is still in limbo, but at least this time I am going in my own terms. When I rode on the plane I smiled because irony kinda sneaked up on me. Maybe sometime life is not about the perfect picture. If an artist is to do that, then he really can't paint. Because life, like art is forever progressive. There is really never one picture, but instead it is how many time you pick up the paintbrush and how many paintings you decide to paint. Hmmm....something about flying, you don't really have much to do except to think. Maybe it is the oxygen that pump through the cabins that makes me think about paint.
Another interesting things is an article that I read about how now student have an option to go after an international baccalaureate curriculum instead of taking traditional AP classes. This program make student look at how the world is connected and stress on global education in literature, science, and history. In the article, one of the parents who oppose this program in high schools cited her reason because she felt it was un-american because the students are moving away from the traditional AP course which its focus on memorization and mainly US driven academics. To me this article along with many other events that is happening right now are indicators the world is shifting in a bigger way then anyone truly realize or would like to admit. The world is getting smaller and also it is getting more balanced. Information can flow anywhere and can get there so fast that it is now harder to get the truth. Not because there is less truths but because there is less bias. But the acts of getting the truth is hard because you can no longer just get from one source, but instead have to look at the macro information society.
Last interesting thing about this weekend. On Monday three things made me happy. One is a comment left by someone who sometime can just write the right thing at the right time. With that I feel very lucky to know that she exist. I just hope she does gloat just because I wrote this. But then again I have many written cards to show her friends if she does. Second the weather was great today. Sometime when I step out, like today the nice breeze with the sunshine just right and the air so clear that it just feel good to take a deep breath. Man I am going to miss this fresh air. Lastly, I saw the cutest kid on jeopardy. Something about a 12 years old kid with glasses wearing a business suit just make me laugh. I am amazed at how he spoke eloquently which exemplified how advanced he was compare to his peers and yet his suddle action you can still see the youthful 12 year old kid. That you got to say well, that kid's parent did something right and life brings promising people.
One is irony. Without disclosing my age, I had a recollection of my emotions in between the age of 3 to 7. That feeling of being an orphan was mainly from not knowing where my father was and my mother was away in the states. For some weird universal reason, I am left with being passed as responsibility to different people. Don't give me wrong, I am grateful my great grandmother and my grand mother were there for me during that time. But you spend your birthdays wondering where are my parents? A bit confused about the concept of family and most of all in a very weird way at that age you spent the nights question what is the norm. Now, decades later, I am planning to head back to Asia where I began my childhood and feel a bit like how I was when I was 6. The family is still in limbo, but at least this time I am going in my own terms. When I rode on the plane I smiled because irony kinda sneaked up on me. Maybe sometime life is not about the perfect picture. If an artist is to do that, then he really can't paint. Because life, like art is forever progressive. There is really never one picture, but instead it is how many time you pick up the paintbrush and how many paintings you decide to paint. Hmmm....something about flying, you don't really have much to do except to think. Maybe it is the oxygen that pump through the cabins that makes me think about paint.
Another interesting things is an article that I read about how now student have an option to go after an international baccalaureate curriculum instead of taking traditional AP classes. This program make student look at how the world is connected and stress on global education in literature, science, and history. In the article, one of the parents who oppose this program in high schools cited her reason because she felt it was un-american because the students are moving away from the traditional AP course which its focus on memorization and mainly US driven academics. To me this article along with many other events that is happening right now are indicators the world is shifting in a bigger way then anyone truly realize or would like to admit. The world is getting smaller and also it is getting more balanced. Information can flow anywhere and can get there so fast that it is now harder to get the truth. Not because there is less truths but because there is less bias. But the acts of getting the truth is hard because you can no longer just get from one source, but instead have to look at the macro information society.
Last interesting thing about this weekend. On Monday three things made me happy. One is a comment left by someone who sometime can just write the right thing at the right time. With that I feel very lucky to know that she exist. I just hope she does gloat just because I wrote this. But then again I have many written cards to show her friends if she does. Second the weather was great today. Sometime when I step out, like today the nice breeze with the sunshine just right and the air so clear that it just feel good to take a deep breath. Man I am going to miss this fresh air. Lastly, I saw the cutest kid on jeopardy. Something about a 12 years old kid with glasses wearing a business suit just make me laugh. I am amazed at how he spoke eloquently which exemplified how advanced he was compare to his peers and yet his suddle action you can still see the youthful 12 year old kid. That you got to say well, that kid's parent did something right and life brings promising people.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Departed
I hear about defining moments for people and I often wonder when things happen to me whether those are the defining moments in my life. I think my decision to quit my easy job in this economy and decide to travel for 3 months and see what that takes me can contribute as one of those defining moments. But as I believe, it is the experience that you absorb during the events that define that experience. It is during those moments that you should often take it in and decide what to do with it. So my preparation for this trip did that for me. Many things during this cleansing process gave me a sense of nostalgia of the events in my life at the bay area. The universal truth about life, the time spend here was filled with both incredible memories and deep heartache. But what sometime you do as you exit an apartment is symbolically for me throwing things out, so I can hopefully bring something in later. At this point I wonder what that is.
So a bit of heartache formed within me with the news that I am leaving the US widens of an already fracture relationship with my mother. Not so much the news of me leaving, but the conversation starter opened up old wounds. I should of known as an adult that picking at scars really don't do much except just remember how you got it. But with a stubborn mother that refuse to see the glass half full, I am left with a portion of my heart a bit more damaged. With time I know it will heal, but the scar tissue with take up room in the heart and in my soul. I often ask God why I deserve this. Then time pass, pick myself up, and dust off the begging questions. Sometime a man is too old to have to go back and sometime a man just needs to forget. The problem with me is that I don't forget. If nothing else, by having that ability would give me a bit more sanity. But when I am away I think I do my part to block things off. But somehow I feel like today's conversation is that defining moment. I had to say to her a portion of what I felt, how I was unfairly treated, and just be me. The result is not good. In back of my mind I would wonder how good of son am I being. Should I just suck it up and continue get emotionally beaned? But at some point I have to start fixing me and stop carrying my mother's burden. A portion of me feel like I am being selfish and a very unloving son. But at my age, I wonder who is there to look out for me when all I do is give. Not sure what the universe (God) would say to me about my actions and thoughts. But this moment I stand behind my actions and let it see how that define my future.
So a bit of heartache formed within me with the news that I am leaving the US widens of an already fracture relationship with my mother. Not so much the news of me leaving, but the conversation starter opened up old wounds. I should of known as an adult that picking at scars really don't do much except just remember how you got it. But with a stubborn mother that refuse to see the glass half full, I am left with a portion of my heart a bit more damaged. With time I know it will heal, but the scar tissue with take up room in the heart and in my soul. I often ask God why I deserve this. Then time pass, pick myself up, and dust off the begging questions. Sometime a man is too old to have to go back and sometime a man just needs to forget. The problem with me is that I don't forget. If nothing else, by having that ability would give me a bit more sanity. But when I am away I think I do my part to block things off. But somehow I feel like today's conversation is that defining moment. I had to say to her a portion of what I felt, how I was unfairly treated, and just be me. The result is not good. In back of my mind I would wonder how good of son am I being. Should I just suck it up and continue get emotionally beaned? But at some point I have to start fixing me and stop carrying my mother's burden. A portion of me feel like I am being selfish and a very unloving son. But at my age, I wonder who is there to look out for me when all I do is give. Not sure what the universe (God) would say to me about my actions and thoughts. But this moment I stand behind my actions and let it see how that define my future.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Investors versus Traders
Wow....so many things to blog, but I can only choose one for now. I guess the most obvious one would be the stock market and the activities that surround it. So my opinion about the automatic halt for the stock market is a bad idea that came form a bunch of people who really don't know what they are doing. Despite their positions in society or maybe their career resume or even what great school they came from just tells me that there are a small group of people that decide for the majority. It just shows that we have people who do not look out for what is best for the people, but instead their agenda is to a selected group. We think the school they are from or what company they work determine their ability to do the right thing. Something is very lacking in all of this mess is the knowledge and courage to affirm that "we" need to stop become zombies or lemmings of this world. But before going further, I think one thing should be clear, there are investors in the market and there are traders. The investors are gone or pretty much a dying breed that got killed by the idiots that try to put regulations and reforms to the market. They use fear and creation of a enemy to drive their agenda or popularity. They say you are the victim and "they" are the evil one, the wrong doers that take food away from your family's table. So what do I mean by that. To begin, what happened on May 6 was the perfect platform to say we need financial reform. The same reasoning behind why we need bailout and all the stuff that we been fed with. But for one second what if all this is due to the natural market forces, the same market forces that drove the market up. I didn't see anyone mention how we need reform when the market jump 1k point in one week or the unexplained reason why we hit above the 10k mark. So okay I benefit from that improvement in the market as I suffer from the fall of the market too. Funny how the first reaction from people, especially those in the government is to look for an enemy to cast blame. Our administration and his lynch mob were ready.
Now the proposal was to halt trading when stock fall below 10% (originally they propose 20%). They come to an agreement that 10% was where the bar should be placed. So anyone who knows economic principals can tell you that this is not the best instrument for market reform or just not good for the market period. In the long run it actually hurts the free market and counter the concept of what a market is. It is also why this administration or really the finance industry has become a shameful bunch because of what they know and what they don't know. This is not about intelligence, this is about greed. So let say the market drop 10% and the halt takes place. As a trader I've been saved (the pause) to exit my positions before it is too late and give me time to rearrange my trade strategy. While the investor wonder or await what happens next. He doesn't have the tool or insider benefit to know what other people are planning on doing. As a trader his mode is to minimize risk of movement in either direction, while as an investor this halt puts him in a holding pattern because he really do not have the tools to react to the market as the traders. So the next day or 5 minute after, the trading resumes. The investor know that a halt took place, will wonder really was that the bottom or an opportunity to buy. The trader on other hand got all the tools to assess the load or direction of trades that will be coming down the pipe and thus the advantage to the investor. In the meantime the trade will make some money with the increase in volume of trade that needs to take place to ride out the volatility. Buy, sell, hedge, cover, and you can name all the strategy. The investor will wait because he knows about the artificial interference with the free market and overall sentiment are getting low (or nervous) so maybe right now is not the best time to buy, but maybe it is. He waits for more information. While the traders will have their own opinion (opportunity to buy, must sell), generate more trade. All this is happening with millions of people in the market. So who loose out on this? Wonder why the investor always get the short end of the stick? Because those who are in the market tend to be there to invest, while those who handle the money makes more money. The halt did not help fellow "Americans", it help the selected (separated) Americans. There is more to be said. But the above is a simple example. But the activities for the last week since May 6 shows what the huge drop was in fact natural market reaction. Although painful to experience (me included), it is part of being in the market. That halt already been implemented in people's mind and the reaction to the market shows it. All this reaction by the policies to inject artificial growth into the market is why we have this situation. The market been injected with so many foreign substance (policies and creative investment strategies) that we are really working with a less of a real market. This market is like a human being that been on crack. We still call him human (market), but really how much of him is really a functional human (free market). Yes people will say they are too big to fail, they will say well the market went up since what the administrator did. But can it be that all this is the law of free market reacting to the fiscal policies than been injected into the system? Can it be that we been led astray by the promise of change for the greater good to investors (Americans, families, ) but instead been zombified to participate in this casino of traders?
Now the proposal was to halt trading when stock fall below 10% (originally they propose 20%). They come to an agreement that 10% was where the bar should be placed. So anyone who knows economic principals can tell you that this is not the best instrument for market reform or just not good for the market period. In the long run it actually hurts the free market and counter the concept of what a market is. It is also why this administration or really the finance industry has become a shameful bunch because of what they know and what they don't know. This is not about intelligence, this is about greed. So let say the market drop 10% and the halt takes place. As a trader I've been saved (the pause) to exit my positions before it is too late and give me time to rearrange my trade strategy. While the investor wonder or await what happens next. He doesn't have the tool or insider benefit to know what other people are planning on doing. As a trader his mode is to minimize risk of movement in either direction, while as an investor this halt puts him in a holding pattern because he really do not have the tools to react to the market as the traders. So the next day or 5 minute after, the trading resumes. The investor know that a halt took place, will wonder really was that the bottom or an opportunity to buy. The trader on other hand got all the tools to assess the load or direction of trades that will be coming down the pipe and thus the advantage to the investor. In the meantime the trade will make some money with the increase in volume of trade that needs to take place to ride out the volatility. Buy, sell, hedge, cover, and you can name all the strategy. The investor will wait because he knows about the artificial interference with the free market and overall sentiment are getting low (or nervous) so maybe right now is not the best time to buy, but maybe it is. He waits for more information. While the traders will have their own opinion (opportunity to buy, must sell), generate more trade. All this is happening with millions of people in the market. So who loose out on this? Wonder why the investor always get the short end of the stick? Because those who are in the market tend to be there to invest, while those who handle the money makes more money. The halt did not help fellow "Americans", it help the selected (separated) Americans. There is more to be said. But the above is a simple example. But the activities for the last week since May 6 shows what the huge drop was in fact natural market reaction. Although painful to experience (me included), it is part of being in the market. That halt already been implemented in people's mind and the reaction to the market shows it. All this reaction by the policies to inject artificial growth into the market is why we have this situation. The market been injected with so many foreign substance (policies and creative investment strategies) that we are really working with a less of a real market. This market is like a human being that been on crack. We still call him human (market), but really how much of him is really a functional human (free market). Yes people will say they are too big to fail, they will say well the market went up since what the administrator did. But can it be that all this is the law of free market reacting to the fiscal policies than been injected into the system? Can it be that we been led astray by the promise of change for the greater good to investors (Americans, families, ) but instead been zombified to participate in this casino of traders?
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Fear Factor
The thought of in a few months from now I will quit my job and go travel in Asia for 3 months scares me. That only word in that sentence that I had a problem deciding to use is the word "scare". In a way I am not sure what word best describe the emotion and the logical thoughts that are mesh together right now. I know I dislike my current job. I know I want some sort of change from what I do day to day and week to week. Yet on the flip side I can't help but to think what happens when I do not have a job to go to and the realization that no cash flow for the next couple of months. I tried to address this fear by submitting for jobs in anticipation that after the travel, I would land a job in Asia. Yet when I looked at these job descriptions from the websites, I discover many jobs require you to have the right to work in that country. So me physically being there means? So how do I combat this at the end of 3 months? Although there are jobs that are open to any applicants, but the majority prefer having local people that they don't have to sponsor to work in that country. With that discovery, I am full of anxiety. The possibilities that I may not find a job may happen. That thought really makes me feel like a ton of weight been put on my back. The thing is that the unknown create many possibilities. Those possibilities can be opportunities as well as lost. You really don't know until it happens later and the things is that no one ever hear about what was lost. Not sure what really all this means since my mind is really scattered with excitement of doing the trip, the fear that I may be making a huge financial mistake, the hope that the opportunities to it may bring, and the stress of if I end this adventure by myself, then what? Maybe it will be a Pyrrhic victory. If it is, then will I dwell on what was lost or embrace what was acquired?
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
My sword is as long as my number of visits on my website
I was wondering when this will finally happen. Truth and fiction will reach a blurry point. Ethical journalism will become so much for evident as know the digit pen becomes more powerful than the sword. Presidency can be reached, enemies can be created, and minds can be transformed. My next prediction, white light journalism versus dark light journalism.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20100407/tc_afp/usitmediaeducationjournalisminternetcolumbia
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20100407/tc_afp/usitmediaeducationjournalisminternetcolumbia
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
A Sniper's Aim
I guess the audacity of hope do not apply to everyone. It really should of been the audacity for separatism agenda.
http://finance.yahoo.com/family-home/article/109234/health-care-reform-tax-hikes-on-the-way?mod=insurance-health
http://finance.yahoo.com/family-home/article/109234/health-care-reform-tax-hikes-on-the-way?mod=insurance-health
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
A simple email to me
From mom to me:
Sometimes we wonder, 'What did I do to deserve this?' or 'Why did God have to do this to me?' Here is a wonderful explanation!
A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.
Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, 'Absolutely Mom, I love your cake.'
'Here, have some cooking oil,' her Mother offers.
'Yuck' says her daughter.
'How about a couple raw eggs?'
'Gross, Mom!' 'Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?'
'Mom, those are all yucky!'
To which the mother replies: 'Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake!'
God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful! God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart.
Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance!
Sometimes we wonder, 'What did I do to deserve this?' or 'Why did God have to do this to me?' Here is a wonderful explanation!
A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.
Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, 'Absolutely Mom, I love your cake.'
'Here, have some cooking oil,' her Mother offers.
'Yuck' says her daughter.
'How about a couple raw eggs?'
'Gross, Mom!' 'Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?'
'Mom, those are all yucky!'
To which the mother replies: 'Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake!'
God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful! God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart.
Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance!
Monday, March 29, 2010
No Cake for You
Today's announcement that the federal official granted 600 million in education grant really makes me wonder how a kid can grow up in the US. I don't think everyone is given a fair education and a person who works hard will not get the education and future s/he deserves. There are so many programs out there that just grant certain people advantages and put other people in disadvantage situations. Even the criteria that were use to select these school are good indications that things will not be fair for future American. Your ethnicity, you income level, and your state determine what kind of education and government program you receive. Not everyone will be available to compete fairly for the schools, if you choose to continue your education. It is not about your grades, it is not about your activities and it is not about what you do, but who you are. That is becoming more and more true as I continue to see the federal program being introduce into Americans' life. But to get back to the education piece, check out the ethnic population of the states (even just the top 16 that got in), then check out the political parties in which these states favors, and then look at the criteria in which the schools(state) get selected. The facts don't lie. Sad to see this happening and how it will impact future people. The most that will get hurt are not the elite who compete and beat out many. But more disturbing are those people that are in the middle of the pack as they move forward in their education and in their careers. At the middle of the pack is where those bias benefits really make its impact. I wonder how many people notice this? How many people realize the implication for the future generation? Where is the America that claim itself to be a land of opportunities?
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Dreaming American
With all the news about health care reform, Google, and financial crisis, I wonder what is United States? I mean, what is this nation becoming? We can have certain people pay more for health care, while other receive free health care as solving wealth inequality. We don't follow another country's law and proclaim that action as free speech. Furthermore we pass off the financial irresponsibility to those who are responsible, by writing things off the books and rotate who is to blame (but yet no specific accountable person identified).
So I wonder are we (US) self centered? How often do we look our self in the mirror? I see how we constant expect other's to FIT into our mold. Yet the world is changing and it is moving forward. The old rule that WE are the only game in town is long gone. Does this sound familiar? Is this much like the GM of the 70s? But now it is not one company, but one country practicing the ideology that we are the center of the world and everything circle around us. If you were to see all the political comments about another country, the change that should take place internally within this nation, and the reform that needs to take place in our financial infrastructure, they all have a common approach. We become cry babies or to be more accurate, we are acting like the two year old that all mothers know about.
So why am I saying this? Because there is so much correlation to what works and what does not in a society. Being proud American (or when we were all at one point) was never about crushing the majority or seeking equality. It was about taking ownership with what was given and making it work. It took biting the bullet. It took sucking it up. It took some open minded thinking about the other side. More importantly, it took entrepreneur and a very capital spirit (not a handout) by all who live in this country.
So I wonder are we (US) self centered? How often do we look our self in the mirror? I see how we constant expect other's to FIT into our mold. Yet the world is changing and it is moving forward. The old rule that WE are the only game in town is long gone. Does this sound familiar? Is this much like the GM of the 70s? But now it is not one company, but one country practicing the ideology that we are the center of the world and everything circle around us. If you were to see all the political comments about another country, the change that should take place internally within this nation, and the reform that needs to take place in our financial infrastructure, they all have a common approach. We become cry babies or to be more accurate, we are acting like the two year old that all mothers know about.
So why am I saying this? Because there is so much correlation to what works and what does not in a society. Being proud American (or when we were all at one point) was never about crushing the majority or seeking equality. It was about taking ownership with what was given and making it work. It took biting the bullet. It took sucking it up. It took some open minded thinking about the other side. More importantly, it took entrepreneur and a very capital spirit (not a handout) by all who live in this country.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Everyday Events....Noticed
Strange thing happen to me today. As we are about to go through an earthquake drill at work, one of the managers called from a distance. He approached close to me and apologized for not making my meeting this morning. He explained the reason was because he got an emergency call that he had to take. It was the news that his mother-in-law passed away. As he tells me this, I looked into the eyes of this 6 feet guy with tears starting to overflow. At that moment I was for one shock that he told something so personal to and at the same time I froze not knowing what to say to the man. I felt sad for him even though before I thought he was a real cocky son of a bitch as a co-worker. That friction between us was temporarily halted as a higher issue emerges. I had to leave because I had to go to the evacuation area, but all I can say to him was, "hang in there".
Ironically, during lunch time I got a call from G. Talking about how he always wanted to go snowboarding in Japan and of course complained about his experience with booking his flight back. I told him my plan for the end of this year and he responded with no comment. Maybe he was shocked and didn't know what to say. But as I sat in the car getting ready to return to work, the song "Live like we are dying" played on the radio. Maybe just the lyric or maybe just some freak timing, or maybe now I just start to notice because I am more sensitive after hearing that guy's news, but the song made me wonder what should I do about what I just experienced. The news of a person passing away, a man that drop all that he is at work after learning that news (what matters to him now?), a person wishing he could do, an event that bother him so bad that he needed to complain, and of course the reason why this song was written? All this is just writing down my sporadic emotions. The phrase that comes to my mind with all that I just experience is the statement: "The weights in our lives". Anyhow, not to over analyze things, but I should record some lyrics from that song that spoke so well of today's experience.
Sometimes we fall down, can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
Till it's to late, it's not too late
Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
And we could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you,
What would you wish you would've done
Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying
We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying
And if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbye
Should be so careful who we live out our lives
So when we long for absolution,
There'll no one on the line, yeah
Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying
We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying
You never know a good thing till it's gone
You never see a crash till it's head on
Why do we think we're right when we're dead wrong
You never know a good thing till it's gone
Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying
We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying
Like we're dying, oh, like we're dying..
We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying..
Ironically, during lunch time I got a call from G. Talking about how he always wanted to go snowboarding in Japan and of course complained about his experience with booking his flight back. I told him my plan for the end of this year and he responded with no comment. Maybe he was shocked and didn't know what to say. But as I sat in the car getting ready to return to work, the song "Live like we are dying" played on the radio. Maybe just the lyric or maybe just some freak timing, or maybe now I just start to notice because I am more sensitive after hearing that guy's news, but the song made me wonder what should I do about what I just experienced. The news of a person passing away, a man that drop all that he is at work after learning that news (what matters to him now?), a person wishing he could do, an event that bother him so bad that he needed to complain, and of course the reason why this song was written? All this is just writing down my sporadic emotions. The phrase that comes to my mind with all that I just experience is the statement: "The weights in our lives". Anyhow, not to over analyze things, but I should record some lyrics from that song that spoke so well of today's experience.
Sometimes we fall down, can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
Till it's to late, it's not too late
Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
And we could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you,
What would you wish you would've done
Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying
We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying
And if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbye
Should be so careful who we live out our lives
So when we long for absolution,
There'll no one on the line, yeah
Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying
We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying
You never know a good thing till it's gone
You never see a crash till it's head on
Why do we think we're right when we're dead wrong
You never know a good thing till it's gone
Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying
We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying
Like we're dying, oh, like we're dying..
We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying..
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Union Nation
I can't help but to comment. I told myself not to waste too much time on this, but dam I just can't help it. The country that I love is becoming a unionized nation. With the proposals this administration been trying to send through Congress, it is really making me wonder why nobody see the long term destruction they will do to this nation. It will give them short term positive numbers which will appear they are doing something right, but the negative impact will last way after this administration leaves. One person says it best. Almost everything this administration is trying to do is counter to the law of natural selection. All proposal by this administration is about survival of the weak. If look carefully, it is about giving to people without them working for it. What is scary is that the theme of the work by O is very much like how you run a union. So what is so bad about the union? Well if you look at all the new ghost towns and industries that are failing, they all are heavy unionized. The union plays on people's emotional need and that is how they get the support of the large number of people. The development of representation by number starts with recruiting efforts of using one or two incidents as an example of all worker (American). People start building that feeling of hope and inspiration. Yet it lacks any substance, but it draws on pure human emotion. I work around union and I see this happen all the time. What stink about what is happening is that our nation is becoming a giant union. History tell us, when time is good a union plays an important part to product more representation. But when times are bad, a union actually has an adverse effect on improvement and innovation by building entitlement groups. Don't be surprise if things seem unfair, despite general perception, a union world is never fair. If you look at all the bills that been passes and those that are being suggested, they all favor certain class or/and ethnic groups. Abuse will occur in the secret few. Lets be real, if anyone is brave enough to look at the impact, the bill already started to benefit a section of the American population. Start looking at things around you (television, marketing ads, leadership appointments, new home owners, available grants, available education, increase in living standard, and much more). You will soon realize there are people who are benefiting from this and it is not all Americans, only the skewed population. While there are a section of American that are being sacrificed. So why does it seem like it (stimulus plan) is working and yet it seems like it is not. Well because we are in a period of the biggest redistribution of wealth in history. This redistribution will hurt our nation in years to come. We will see other nations progress forward, while we continue the state of trying to survive. Sound familiar? Because this is the beginning events when union form within an entity.
If I've been wrong (in this case I hope I am), but my track record shows that majority of time I am pretty close in my assessment. I write what I observe regardless of party. Unfortunately people just can't see pass what party or what ethnic group they belong to. I truly hope that something will happen to avoid the path we are heading because my future depending on what this administration will do in the months to come.
If I've been wrong (in this case I hope I am), but my track record shows that majority of time I am pretty close in my assessment. I write what I observe regardless of party. Unfortunately people just can't see pass what party or what ethnic group they belong to. I truly hope that something will happen to avoid the path we are heading because my future depending on what this administration will do in the months to come.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Friction
I wonder what this new lunar year will be for me. One word that I can give to describe this week is "Friction". This new year started out in Egypt with little reminder that it came. Although it made a whisper entry, it bring strong head wind that make me feel a bit deflated already.
The new year started off in beautiful (depend how you see it) Egypt to discover its rich history. But that got redirected into an argument with D that started from the issue of payment for the excursion to how our hostess did not understand we need a la Cart menu. Although topics that usually go unmentioned, it exacerbated to us coming to our near decision to depart our separate ways. In the end we continued our trip and we did not act upon that night's conclusion. Yet I have to wonder, why it has to occur every time we go on a trip and how much can our relationship withstand the stress until that fracture became so grotesque that we have to turn away? The topic never really discussed between us, but I think D has to wonder that herself. The statement for us to break up is becoming more frequent during our fights. We will continue to have the geographic divide and our time are limited to when we do see each other. The question lies in how much we have changed and how much our relationship have went astray. To complicated even more, my quest to leave work later this year and travel is in question. What if we can not be together? Either the universe unwilling for us to hold jobs in the same location or just the normal change in our individual lives divide our spirits to be in a relationship, the uncertainty give me doubt to my ambitious quest to leave the US. I am afraid there are more questions than answers, especially when it come to the matters of the heart. Also one point that D brought up is true. There is something in me that I am torn, unhappy, divide, angry, etc...about. I just don't know what that is yet.
Maybe last night provided a slight clue. Went out with K last night, since big K was stopping over before his trip back to Hawaii. We hung out with a few of K's friends who I later discovered are a bunch of 23 yr old single mothers that really just whacked in the head. Did the dinner thing, the karaoke room, and then went to a club where R was the guess DJ. The night ended at its usually ritual of wonton shrimp noodle and my miraculous 10 minute nap. The next morning I feel a heavy load of uneasiness. It is hard to explain, but it is an empty feeling of wondering why I am still doing this. My question of whether this is where my life is about. How is it that I have people around me and yet the next day I feel more alone versus if I were to do things by myself? My friend once said I am naive. Sometime they say I look for the perfection and sometime they say I just like to seek aimlessly. Regardless what adjectives I can circulate in my sentences, I think I am looking for something greater than the routine. Maybe it is about something greater than myself. Maybe it is about having a detail goal. Maybe it is about getting into something that I can work at. Regardless what it is, it seems that the less of the standard is what I seek more than what I realize in the past.
To run away from a past. Can it be that my parent had such an impact of my past that I struggle in trying to run away from it? How can it be that talking to my mother can bring so much frustration? Earlier this evening, she asked about using my benefit to travel to a China trip with her distant aunt and my grandmother. Even the simple explanation that my benefit included me being tax for her trip became an argument of me reluctant to help her. It got to a point where I was stand accused of lying and question how is it a benefit. Sometime it is just exhausting to even speak about one topic. There was no word on how my trip was or any mention of how I am doing. Just about how I could not simply say yes to her request. The sad thing is that if I just said yes and did not lay out the risk of flying during China's world expo or the fact that things are not free, then maybe I would of avoided the heartache. Let it be at that day when she is stuck there for a few days. Is it better to just have things happen even though I may have the foresight? My constant preparation or understanding what may happen seems to always get me into trouble. The fact is people don't want me to avoid how they my be hurt. But I think what it is more important to them is that it came be easy.
Well my first day back to work is tomorrow. I can't say I am very excited about it. But if the past week is any indication of what is to come, then I am for some major confrontational events.
The new year started off in beautiful (depend how you see it) Egypt to discover its rich history. But that got redirected into an argument with D that started from the issue of payment for the excursion to how our hostess did not understand we need a la Cart menu. Although topics that usually go unmentioned, it exacerbated to us coming to our near decision to depart our separate ways. In the end we continued our trip and we did not act upon that night's conclusion. Yet I have to wonder, why it has to occur every time we go on a trip and how much can our relationship withstand the stress until that fracture became so grotesque that we have to turn away? The topic never really discussed between us, but I think D has to wonder that herself. The statement for us to break up is becoming more frequent during our fights. We will continue to have the geographic divide and our time are limited to when we do see each other. The question lies in how much we have changed and how much our relationship have went astray. To complicated even more, my quest to leave work later this year and travel is in question. What if we can not be together? Either the universe unwilling for us to hold jobs in the same location or just the normal change in our individual lives divide our spirits to be in a relationship, the uncertainty give me doubt to my ambitious quest to leave the US. I am afraid there are more questions than answers, especially when it come to the matters of the heart. Also one point that D brought up is true. There is something in me that I am torn, unhappy, divide, angry, etc...about. I just don't know what that is yet.
Maybe last night provided a slight clue. Went out with K last night, since big K was stopping over before his trip back to Hawaii. We hung out with a few of K's friends who I later discovered are a bunch of 23 yr old single mothers that really just whacked in the head. Did the dinner thing, the karaoke room, and then went to a club where R was the guess DJ. The night ended at its usually ritual of wonton shrimp noodle and my miraculous 10 minute nap. The next morning I feel a heavy load of uneasiness. It is hard to explain, but it is an empty feeling of wondering why I am still doing this. My question of whether this is where my life is about. How is it that I have people around me and yet the next day I feel more alone versus if I were to do things by myself? My friend once said I am naive. Sometime they say I look for the perfection and sometime they say I just like to seek aimlessly. Regardless what adjectives I can circulate in my sentences, I think I am looking for something greater than the routine. Maybe it is about something greater than myself. Maybe it is about having a detail goal. Maybe it is about getting into something that I can work at. Regardless what it is, it seems that the less of the standard is what I seek more than what I realize in the past.
To run away from a past. Can it be that my parent had such an impact of my past that I struggle in trying to run away from it? How can it be that talking to my mother can bring so much frustration? Earlier this evening, she asked about using my benefit to travel to a China trip with her distant aunt and my grandmother. Even the simple explanation that my benefit included me being tax for her trip became an argument of me reluctant to help her. It got to a point where I was stand accused of lying and question how is it a benefit. Sometime it is just exhausting to even speak about one topic. There was no word on how my trip was or any mention of how I am doing. Just about how I could not simply say yes to her request. The sad thing is that if I just said yes and did not lay out the risk of flying during China's world expo or the fact that things are not free, then maybe I would of avoided the heartache. Let it be at that day when she is stuck there for a few days. Is it better to just have things happen even though I may have the foresight? My constant preparation or understanding what may happen seems to always get me into trouble. The fact is people don't want me to avoid how they my be hurt. But I think what it is more important to them is that it came be easy.
Well my first day back to work is tomorrow. I can't say I am very excited about it. But if the past week is any indication of what is to come, then I am for some major confrontational events.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Measure me, measure us
I have a new respect for those people going on a diet. Maybe it is my age or maybe its just my lack of will. But I find that I have a tougher time loosing the weight. I've improved my diet with very low amount of carb.....well I think I did. But I've yet to see the reduction in the muffin top as I have hoped. The weird part of my new diet is that I end up having less energy when I get involve in sports. Maybe just my body getting use to it. This feels like being a chemist trying to mix the right amount of chemicals into my body so I can operate better. For instance, I bought half wheat pasta the other day. I don't know if I can commit to whole wheat, because despite my delicious sauce, having crappy pasta just ruins the entire dish. But then my choice for pasta question my attitude flaw with this diet. Why not have the entire pasta whole wheat?
Ah, I can't pass this up. Hmm, I wonder why the numbers are so off? An example why I feel the measurements that is in place are inaccurate and wrongly reflect current economy. I can't believe it took them that long to realize this. As I said before. The first change is to reform how we measure the US economy and not let political administration be allowed to change those criteria unless by a body of bipartisan economists.
http://finance.yahoo.com/news/Recessions-job-losses-likely-cnnm-1998556151.html?x=0
Ah, I can't pass this up. Hmm, I wonder why the numbers are so off? An example why I feel the measurements that is in place are inaccurate and wrongly reflect current economy. I can't believe it took them that long to realize this. As I said before. The first change is to reform how we measure the US economy and not let political administration be allowed to change those criteria unless by a body of bipartisan economists.
http://finance.yahoo.com/news/Recessions-job-losses-likely-cnnm-1998556151.html?x=0
Friday, January 29, 2010
Not an open book
We are often told to not judge a book by its cover. I think people listened, acted out this idea and then completely missed the whole point. People stopped looking at the cover, in fact diligently telling others to ignore the cover, and leaped to stop reading the book all together.
After listen to O's speech on YouTube, I have a more understanding his political DNA and a bit of his human side as well. Unfortunately I don't have any good things to say about it. I view this not from a political party standpoint, but from the examination of a public figure that over the past few months have taken verbal karate into a whole new level and in my opinion to an art form that people starting to model after. There are other human traits that I observed, which I will defer until later. But to examine just from his speech that he made, I question and judge who is the real O. Bottom line, there are a lot of over exaggerated statements and flat out lies. I'll name just a few:
More Transparency - that is a complete lie. He said he would allow the American people to know what goes on in the white house and Washington DC by posting the visitors online. Well if you really dig deeper you will find the truth. The administration did not disclose all the meetings they had with the banks and when journalist tried to get details, they were turned away. In addition, pardons were not disclosed to the public and other legislations were passed without giving any notice to anyone in the category of the average Americans. There are too many too list here, but transparency is not truth. It is a tool that is used to position himself as a defender of people and then point as some enemy.
He also had a statement saying we should stop campaigning and start working for fellow Americans. But it you look at his activities all he does is campaigning. He campaigned for the budge, the health bill, when his party was about to loose a seat in senate and much more. What about allowing certain people to ask question at town hall meeting so he can look like he is in touch with the average Americans? There lies an art. Align with the victim, and then make sure you identify the enemy before anyone else.
He had no choice but to support the past administration - this is another lie. He said he is often force to do the unpopular thing. So after it happen, it was obvious that he made mistakes, but instead owning up to it, he passes the blame. Basically he said he couldn't stop what was going on. I thought he was a leader of the nation. Imagine if a CEO said that. Would that be even acceptable and wasn't his premise of the race about bringing change? Despite the obvious, he spoke so boldly on how much on what needs to be done by someone else. That to me show someone who act real leadership and provide no accountability for his action. To me that is really disturbing especially he is so readily pointing finger at other people.
Stimulus Act works and saved jobs - that is some what of an exaggerated number. But at least there is some truth to that statement. If a company fire someone and the hire someone right back, then they get credit from the stimulus act and the administration get credit for job saved. Also when you look at where the money is going to, a lot is going to the wrong places and focus on only specific industries. One can easily argue it is bias on class, race, ethnicity, and industry. No research is done yet, but I assure soon people will start looking at where the money is going. But the most important thing about the stimulus act that one person has to really ask is, how is this going to make economy better (opportunity for growth) versus just bandage (give fund to) what is already wrong about the economy.
The lost decade of where no growth - housing bubble and financial during the republican ruling, is a false statement of when the housing bubble started. The deficit is not what causes this mess. The deficit is a reaction to the bubble burst. As I recall housing started with extreme growth when Clinton was in office. The bubble is not a political party problem, it is a people problem.
There are so many exaggerated statement and false comments in his speech. The most disturbing part of his speech is not what he point out what he has done in the past, but what he envision in the future. It is a very dangerous road to continue if US follow through what he suggested. His bill and his path are about helping the weak and punish the successful. Giving money to those who don't have to pay back their tuition, give small business money for them to give increase, and of course other acts where to give more to the so call weak. Basically capitalism is out the door. The hard truth is the capitalism is not fair nor is it kind. But that is core what America is build from and is about. People came to this country to have the freedom to express. They want to exercise their capitalism. They escape their country so they can avoid the unfair treatment to a certain class, certain race, certain ethnicity, or just any other bias political act. In practicing that capitalism drove the entrepreneur spirit of people both economically as well as emotionally. His movement is to make people a victim of society. It reminds me a phrase "We didn’t land on Plymouth Rock, but Plymouth Rock landed on us". It is a scary though when the next wave of budge and bills that he plans to push through congress. The fact is that job will rebound, but with a cost. Law of economic says eventually the wave turns and employment will return. But the distribution of wealth is artificially distributed by the government and not by the natural movement of capitalism will push stagnant growth for many years to come. If to closely look at all the initiative he enacted and about to propose, it is to foster the belief of entitlement in the American people. That entitlement is really what began the down fall of the economy.
So for all the things that I have written, one would wonder if this makes me a hater or even a conspiracy theorist. But you have to wonder, why is this the second time where someone in the audience express how he lies. First it was the republican dumb ass and the second is a Supreme Court justice. Regardless what party, you have to wonder, why would someone outburst like that. In the course of history I don't remember having that much outburst of expression. Maybe the insiders know something more and maybe they have a bit more understanding of the truth.
Look people, the sum of the parts make the whole. Get the whole so you can understand the truth. Notice, you don't get the truth, you understand the truth. It is up to each individual's responsibility to get that understanding.
I like to see America become strong again, but in order to do that, people need to be real. Sometime it may just require shedding all the ego and entitlement that have build up over the decades. It is a brave new world out there and when we talk about global economy, maybe this is where it moves forward in acceleration. In the past we think the rest of the world circle around us. Maybe now we realize the world is not flat and we (Americans) are not alone in this world.
After listen to O's speech on YouTube, I have a more understanding his political DNA and a bit of his human side as well. Unfortunately I don't have any good things to say about it. I view this not from a political party standpoint, but from the examination of a public figure that over the past few months have taken verbal karate into a whole new level and in my opinion to an art form that people starting to model after. There are other human traits that I observed, which I will defer until later. But to examine just from his speech that he made, I question and judge who is the real O. Bottom line, there are a lot of over exaggerated statements and flat out lies. I'll name just a few:
More Transparency - that is a complete lie. He said he would allow the American people to know what goes on in the white house and Washington DC by posting the visitors online. Well if you really dig deeper you will find the truth. The administration did not disclose all the meetings they had with the banks and when journalist tried to get details, they were turned away. In addition, pardons were not disclosed to the public and other legislations were passed without giving any notice to anyone in the category of the average Americans. There are too many too list here, but transparency is not truth. It is a tool that is used to position himself as a defender of people and then point as some enemy.
He also had a statement saying we should stop campaigning and start working for fellow Americans. But it you look at his activities all he does is campaigning. He campaigned for the budge, the health bill, when his party was about to loose a seat in senate and much more. What about allowing certain people to ask question at town hall meeting so he can look like he is in touch with the average Americans? There lies an art. Align with the victim, and then make sure you identify the enemy before anyone else.
He had no choice but to support the past administration - this is another lie. He said he is often force to do the unpopular thing. So after it happen, it was obvious that he made mistakes, but instead owning up to it, he passes the blame. Basically he said he couldn't stop what was going on. I thought he was a leader of the nation. Imagine if a CEO said that. Would that be even acceptable and wasn't his premise of the race about bringing change? Despite the obvious, he spoke so boldly on how much on what needs to be done by someone else. That to me show someone who act real leadership and provide no accountability for his action. To me that is really disturbing especially he is so readily pointing finger at other people.
Stimulus Act works and saved jobs - that is some what of an exaggerated number. But at least there is some truth to that statement. If a company fire someone and the hire someone right back, then they get credit from the stimulus act and the administration get credit for job saved. Also when you look at where the money is going to, a lot is going to the wrong places and focus on only specific industries. One can easily argue it is bias on class, race, ethnicity, and industry. No research is done yet, but I assure soon people will start looking at where the money is going. But the most important thing about the stimulus act that one person has to really ask is, how is this going to make economy better (opportunity for growth) versus just bandage (give fund to) what is already wrong about the economy.
The lost decade of where no growth - housing bubble and financial during the republican ruling, is a false statement of when the housing bubble started. The deficit is not what causes this mess. The deficit is a reaction to the bubble burst. As I recall housing started with extreme growth when Clinton was in office. The bubble is not a political party problem, it is a people problem.
There are so many exaggerated statement and false comments in his speech. The most disturbing part of his speech is not what he point out what he has done in the past, but what he envision in the future. It is a very dangerous road to continue if US follow through what he suggested. His bill and his path are about helping the weak and punish the successful. Giving money to those who don't have to pay back their tuition, give small business money for them to give increase, and of course other acts where to give more to the so call weak. Basically capitalism is out the door. The hard truth is the capitalism is not fair nor is it kind. But that is core what America is build from and is about. People came to this country to have the freedom to express. They want to exercise their capitalism. They escape their country so they can avoid the unfair treatment to a certain class, certain race, certain ethnicity, or just any other bias political act. In practicing that capitalism drove the entrepreneur spirit of people both economically as well as emotionally. His movement is to make people a victim of society. It reminds me a phrase "We didn’t land on Plymouth Rock, but Plymouth Rock landed on us". It is a scary though when the next wave of budge and bills that he plans to push through congress. The fact is that job will rebound, but with a cost. Law of economic says eventually the wave turns and employment will return. But the distribution of wealth is artificially distributed by the government and not by the natural movement of capitalism will push stagnant growth for many years to come. If to closely look at all the initiative he enacted and about to propose, it is to foster the belief of entitlement in the American people. That entitlement is really what began the down fall of the economy.
So for all the things that I have written, one would wonder if this makes me a hater or even a conspiracy theorist. But you have to wonder, why is this the second time where someone in the audience express how he lies. First it was the republican dumb ass and the second is a Supreme Court justice. Regardless what party, you have to wonder, why would someone outburst like that. In the course of history I don't remember having that much outburst of expression. Maybe the insiders know something more and maybe they have a bit more understanding of the truth.
Look people, the sum of the parts make the whole. Get the whole so you can understand the truth. Notice, you don't get the truth, you understand the truth. It is up to each individual's responsibility to get that understanding.
I like to see America become strong again, but in order to do that, people need to be real. Sometime it may just require shedding all the ego and entitlement that have build up over the decades. It is a brave new world out there and when we talk about global economy, maybe this is where it moves forward in acceleration. In the past we think the rest of the world circle around us. Maybe now we realize the world is not flat and we (Americans) are not alone in this world.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
The empty O
Sometimes when you read an article and it gives you relief that you are not crazy. Maybe someone else in this world also sees the truth to what O is really about. I wish I can say I told you so to the all those that believed in his act. I want to say, " Hey dumb people in this world, why don't you smarten up"? Yet I realize the supporters of the great hype are the well educated people. They can't possibly be wrong, they think all we need is hope, and the chant now we can do what? That opens up the question of whether if you are as smart as you think? Book smart can never take away from experience, truism, and historic wisdom.
I can not say it better.
http://articles.moneycentral.msn.com/Investing/Extra/how-obama-is-failing-investors.aspx
With that moment of teasing and ego boosting exercise, I must say I feel sad that the state in which the country is getting itself into. I like to say good things will happen, and I think they will, eventually. But there are so many people that will fall to the victim of this mess that goes unnoticed. I think people should be angry. Angry at our leader, angry at our self, and most of all withdraw from the egocentric practice that we place on other people. Want a better world? Start by being a better you. Dam it! Check yourself!
I can not say it better.
http://articles.moneycentral.msn.com/Investing/Extra/how-obama-is-failing-investors.aspx
With that moment of teasing and ego boosting exercise, I must say I feel sad that the state in which the country is getting itself into. I like to say good things will happen, and I think they will, eventually. But there are so many people that will fall to the victim of this mess that goes unnoticed. I think people should be angry. Angry at our leader, angry at our self, and most of all withdraw from the egocentric practice that we place on other people. Want a better world? Start by being a better you. Dam it! Check yourself!
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Eat Me
Got my biometric screening result the other day and found out I have extremely high triglycerides, which means I have a high risk level for metabolic syndrome or in simple terms heart attack. I was told of this before when I got my physical two years ago. My doctor told me to watch my level. I wonder if I gotten higher or lower. Nevertheless, I figure I should alter my eating habit a bit and plus I think maybe the sports I do every week been helping to balance all the crap I put into my body. Hahahah I talk like I’m 50 years old. So from D’s advice I should cook more at home, which that is not going to happen or I should pick up stuff from healthier store like Trader Joe’s. So went to trader Joe’s this morning and may just found a liking to this store. But I’m not sure how health is the stuff I picked. For instance my lunch from this place is eggplant Parmesan. I wish I can take a picture of it, but it looks greasier than my pizza last night. The cheese melts all over the sauce and the sauce in goo over the eggplant and the eggplant over the sea of oil. Nevertheless I’m proud of the list I got since they look pretty good to me.
Mushroom Fettuccine
Tikka Masala with rice
Butter Chicken with Basmati rice
BBQ Cut Salmon – I actually have to cook this thing, but the butter is included.
Gnocchi alla Sorrentina
Eggplant Parmesan – will consume.
Handmade chicken burritos
I’m still looking for the healthy part. Hahaha. I have to see how these food make me feel in the week to come. But for now psychologically I’m getting healthier.
Mushroom Fettuccine
Tikka Masala with rice
Butter Chicken with Basmati rice
BBQ Cut Salmon – I actually have to cook this thing, but the butter is included.
Gnocchi alla Sorrentina
Eggplant Parmesan – will consume.
Handmade chicken burritos
I’m still looking for the healthy part. Hahaha. I have to see how these food make me feel in the week to come. But for now psychologically I’m getting healthier.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Proofing the continue line of zeroes
Is it the things around you that make who you are or is it you who make the things around you what they are? Fifteen days into 2010 has been rather troublesome for my spirit. It brings mix emotions of the events that have passed over the years as well as the uneasy feeling of the things to be in the months to come. I wish I could say I feel positive and that it is a new year. I mean, isn’t it how that suppose to work? The new year bring hope, optimism and the turning of a new leaf? Yet I don’t feel that way. Therefore, I am consciously taking this weekend to explore what is inside of me that I yet do not know. Not sure how to break this down, since my emotion and thought comes from multiple directions. I wish it was two dimensional or even 3 dimensional. Maybe because I am writing this at 2:30 AM, but for me, I swear my thoughts feels like the trivial zeros in Riemann hypothesis. The proofing of what lies in this critical line of mine is beyond my comprehension. So maybe an approach to complex problems is to start with simple methods applies in this case. So what are things in my life that leave me uneasy?
My current job sucks. Enough said. I complained enough and ran it through my head to realize that it makes me unhappy. Although the hours and the travel benefits are unbelievable, I am left with a sense of what the phuck am I doing here?
An internal confirmation as to where I would be. Usually people can say my home is. I can not complete that statement. This makes me feel a bit nomadic. I don’t like the uncertainty. It leaves a void in my heart that is unexplained and I have no intention to visit that topic deeply. When I start thinking about this topic, I question whether it is because I’ve always moved around or that I’m too stubborn to just settle or even just something where I’m just mad at my upbringing. But in a way I believe my life be somehow navigated to this unsettle feeling of not able to say “this is home”.
Having a long distance relationship is finally hitting me. Maybe I’ve been trying to avoid this topic for some time now with some sort of self hypnosis. I think I’ve been using things to keep me busy so I would be distracted to just avoid my feeling about maintaining contact with someone who lives thousands of miles away. I held back the word relationship because if I were to examine this closely, it is the little everyday things that make up that interaction. Seeing, touching, exploring, doing the wrong, uncover the right, opening the door and seeing the person, sleeping, eating, realizing the bad, realizing the good, and just a whole chain of things that take a step forward in that exploration. But when physical distance comes to play, it eliminated many of those things and halts a relationship. But in reality nothing been stopped, because one core variable will always continue and that is time. As I explore this topic before, time can be a double edged sword or a double edged toothpick.
Friends are gone and truthfully having good friends around is really difficult to find. I am thankful that I still keep in contact with them, but yet like all type of relationship in general, physical distance detaches me from them. Not that I do not have any emotion for them or that I am not glad to see them, just that it is different. That difference becomes barriers and the physical distance eventually lead to emotional distance.
So with a combination of these things leave a very bitter taste in my mouth to say the least. If any of the four things change, it indefinitely brings other into more chaotic state. Where do my trivial zeroes lie in this critical line of mine? When do you stop seeking and accept things to be as is? Can one’s own conflict be transference to others around him? My most unsubstantiated concern is that nothing gets change or when things change, they change in the worse time possible. Maybe the question to my self is what to let go. Since I can remember, I’ve always tried to grab onto things until I can make it right. Gripping whatever that topic with all that I have spiritually as well as create my self hypnosis sucking it in unless I get what I want. Those times may deliver results, but often without some sore of casualty or opportunity cost. Then there are time when I waited too long to let go. This eventually leads to a constant self doubt and bipolar like dispositions of which I discover in my self evaluation are not good for the soul. Not good at all.
My current job sucks. Enough said. I complained enough and ran it through my head to realize that it makes me unhappy. Although the hours and the travel benefits are unbelievable, I am left with a sense of what the phuck am I doing here?
An internal confirmation as to where I would be. Usually people can say my home is. I can not complete that statement. This makes me feel a bit nomadic. I don’t like the uncertainty. It leaves a void in my heart that is unexplained and I have no intention to visit that topic deeply. When I start thinking about this topic, I question whether it is because I’ve always moved around or that I’m too stubborn to just settle or even just something where I’m just mad at my upbringing. But in a way I believe my life be somehow navigated to this unsettle feeling of not able to say “this is home”.
Having a long distance relationship is finally hitting me. Maybe I’ve been trying to avoid this topic for some time now with some sort of self hypnosis. I think I’ve been using things to keep me busy so I would be distracted to just avoid my feeling about maintaining contact with someone who lives thousands of miles away. I held back the word relationship because if I were to examine this closely, it is the little everyday things that make up that interaction. Seeing, touching, exploring, doing the wrong, uncover the right, opening the door and seeing the person, sleeping, eating, realizing the bad, realizing the good, and just a whole chain of things that take a step forward in that exploration. But when physical distance comes to play, it eliminated many of those things and halts a relationship. But in reality nothing been stopped, because one core variable will always continue and that is time. As I explore this topic before, time can be a double edged sword or a double edged toothpick.
Friends are gone and truthfully having good friends around is really difficult to find. I am thankful that I still keep in contact with them, but yet like all type of relationship in general, physical distance detaches me from them. Not that I do not have any emotion for them or that I am not glad to see them, just that it is different. That difference becomes barriers and the physical distance eventually lead to emotional distance.
So with a combination of these things leave a very bitter taste in my mouth to say the least. If any of the four things change, it indefinitely brings other into more chaotic state. Where do my trivial zeroes lie in this critical line of mine? When do you stop seeking and accept things to be as is? Can one’s own conflict be transference to others around him? My most unsubstantiated concern is that nothing gets change or when things change, they change in the worse time possible. Maybe the question to my self is what to let go. Since I can remember, I’ve always tried to grab onto things until I can make it right. Gripping whatever that topic with all that I have spiritually as well as create my self hypnosis sucking it in unless I get what I want. Those times may deliver results, but often without some sore of casualty or opportunity cost. Then there are time when I waited too long to let go. This eventually leads to a constant self doubt and bipolar like dispositions of which I discover in my self evaluation are not good for the soul. Not good at all.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
What do you call this?
A indication of character? A philosophy of leadership? An example of ugly politics? A wolf in sheep's clothing? The change that we all sucker to believe in. The transparency and openness that was promised.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20100112/ap_on_bi_ge/us_stimulus_counting_jobs
Bush couldn't say it, but I guess this administration knew how to execute it. It is FOOL ME ONCE, SHAME ON YOU; FOOL ME TWICE, SHAME ON ME. I guess all the people that so tunnel visioned in believing in this administration should take a reflection on one's audacity for seeking real truth. Maybe less time spent on criticising other people for not believing the same and more on uncover the cloth. I wonder when will people start judging the work of "the man" instead of the color of "the man".
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20100112/ap_on_bi_ge/us_stimulus_counting_jobs
Bush couldn't say it, but I guess this administration knew how to execute it. It is FOOL ME ONCE, SHAME ON YOU; FOOL ME TWICE, SHAME ON ME. I guess all the people that so tunnel visioned in believing in this administration should take a reflection on one's audacity for seeking real truth. Maybe less time spent on criticising other people for not believing the same and more on uncover the cloth. I wonder when will people start judging the work of "the man" instead of the color of "the man".
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