Not an open book

We are often told to not judge a book by its cover. I think people listened, acted out this idea and then completely missed the whole point. People stopped looking at the cover, in fact diligently telling others to ignore the cover, and leaped to stop reading the book all together.

After listen to O's speech on YouTube, I have a more understanding his political DNA and a bit of his human side as well. Unfortunately I don't have any good things to say about it. I view this not from a political party standpoint, but from the examination of a public figure that over the past few months have taken verbal karate into a whole new level and in my opinion to an art form that people starting to model after. There are other human traits that I observed, which I will defer until later. But to examine just from his speech that he made, I question and judge who is the real O. Bottom line, there are a lot of over exaggerated statements and flat out lies. I'll name just a few:

More Transparency - that is a complete lie. He said he would allow the American people to know what goes on in the white house and Washington DC by posting the visitors online. Well if you really dig deeper you will find the truth. The administration did not disclose all the meetings they had with the banks and when journalist tried to get details, they were turned away. In addition, pardons were not disclosed to the public and other legislations were passed without giving any notice to anyone in the category of the average Americans. There are too many too list here, but transparency is not truth. It is a tool that is used to position himself as a defender of people and then point as some enemy.

He also had a statement saying we should stop campaigning and start working for fellow Americans. But it you look at his activities all he does is campaigning. He campaigned for the budge, the health bill, when his party was about to loose a seat in senate and much more. What about allowing certain people to ask question at town hall meeting so he can look like he is in touch with the average Americans? There lies an art. Align with the victim, and then make sure you identify the enemy before anyone else.

He had no choice but to support the past administration - this is another lie. He said he is often force to do the unpopular thing. So after it happen, it was obvious that he made mistakes, but instead owning up to it, he passes the blame. Basically he said he couldn't stop what was going on. I thought he was a leader of the nation. Imagine if a CEO said that. Would that be even acceptable and wasn't his premise of the race about bringing change? Despite the obvious, he spoke so boldly on how much on what needs to be done by someone else. That to me show someone who act real leadership and provide no accountability for his action. To me that is really disturbing especially he is so readily pointing finger at other people.

Stimulus Act works and saved jobs - that is some what of an exaggerated number. But at least there is some truth to that statement. If a company fire someone and the hire someone right back, then they get credit from the stimulus act and the administration get credit for job saved. Also when you look at where the money is going to, a lot is going to the wrong places and focus on only specific industries. One can easily argue it is bias on class, race, ethnicity, and industry. No research is done yet, but I assure soon people will start looking at where the money is going. But the most important thing about the stimulus act that one person has to really ask is, how is this going to make economy better (opportunity for growth) versus just bandage (give fund to) what is already wrong about the economy.

The lost decade of where no growth - housing bubble and financial during the republican ruling, is a false statement of when the housing bubble started. The deficit is not what causes this mess. The deficit is a reaction to the bubble burst. As I recall housing started with extreme growth when Clinton was in office. The bubble is not a political party problem, it is a people problem.

There are so many exaggerated statement and false comments in his speech. The most disturbing part of his speech is not what he point out what he has done in the past, but what he envision in the future. It is a very dangerous road to continue if US follow through what he suggested. His bill and his path are about helping the weak and punish the successful. Giving money to those who don't have to pay back their tuition, give small business money for them to give increase, and of course other acts where to give more to the so call weak. Basically capitalism is out the door. The hard truth is the capitalism is not fair nor is it kind. But that is core what America is build from and is about. People came to this country to have the freedom to express. They want to exercise their capitalism. They escape their country so they can avoid the unfair treatment to a certain class, certain race, certain ethnicity, or just any other bias political act. In practicing that capitalism drove the entrepreneur spirit of people both economically as well as emotionally. His movement is to make people a victim of society. It reminds me a phrase "We didn’t land on Plymouth Rock, but Plymouth Rock landed on us". It is a scary though when the next wave of budge and bills that he plans to push through congress. The fact is that job will rebound, but with a cost. Law of economic says eventually the wave turns and employment will return. But the distribution of wealth is artificially distributed by the government and not by the natural movement of capitalism will push stagnant growth for many years to come. If to closely look at all the initiative he enacted and about to propose, it is to foster the belief of entitlement in the American people. That entitlement is really what began the down fall of the economy.

So for all the things that I have written, one would wonder if this makes me a hater or even a conspiracy theorist. But you have to wonder, why is this the second time where someone in the audience express how he lies. First it was the republican dumb ass and the second is a Supreme Court justice. Regardless what party, you have to wonder, why would someone outburst like that. In the course of history I don't remember having that much outburst of expression. Maybe the insiders know something more and maybe they have a bit more understanding of the truth.

Look people, the sum of the parts make the whole. Get the whole so you can understand the truth. Notice, you don't get the truth, you understand the truth. It is up to each individual's responsibility to get that understanding.

I like to see America become strong again, but in order to do that, people need to be real. Sometime it may just require shedding all the ego and entitlement that have build up over the decades. It is a brave new world out there and when we talk about global economy, maybe this is where it moves forward in acceleration. In the past we think the rest of the world circle around us. Maybe now we realize the world is not flat and we (Americans) are not alone in this world.

The empty O

Sometimes when you read an article and it gives you relief that you are not crazy. Maybe someone else in this world also sees the truth to what O is really about. I wish I can say I told you so to the all those that believed in his act. I want to say, " Hey dumb people in this world, why don't you smarten up"? Yet I realize the supporters of the great hype are the well educated people. They can't possibly be wrong, they think all we need is hope, and the chant now we can do what? That opens up the question of whether if you are as smart as you think? Book smart can never take away from experience, truism, and historic wisdom.

I can not say it better.

http://articles.moneycentral.msn.com/Investing/Extra/how-obama-is-failing-investors.aspx

With that moment of teasing and ego boosting exercise, I must say I feel sad that the state in which the country is getting itself into. I like to say good things will happen, and I think they will, eventually. But there are so many people that will fall to the victim of this mess that goes unnoticed. I think people should be angry. Angry at our leader, angry at our self, and most of all withdraw from the egocentric practice that we place on other people. Want a better world? Start by being a better you. Dam it! Check yourself!

Eat Me

Got my biometric screening result the other day and found out I have extremely high triglycerides, which means I have a high risk level for metabolic syndrome or in simple terms heart attack. I was told of this before when I got my physical two years ago. My doctor told me to watch my level. I wonder if I gotten higher or lower. Nevertheless, I figure I should alter my eating habit a bit and plus I think maybe the sports I do every week been helping to balance all the crap I put into my body. Hahahah I talk like I’m 50 years old. So from D’s advice I should cook more at home, which that is not going to happen or I should pick up stuff from healthier store like Trader Joe’s. So went to trader Joe’s this morning and may just found a liking to this store. But I’m not sure how health is the stuff I picked. For instance my lunch from this place is eggplant Parmesan. I wish I can take a picture of it, but it looks greasier than my pizza last night. The cheese melts all over the sauce and the sauce in goo over the eggplant and the eggplant over the sea of oil. Nevertheless I’m proud of the list I got since they look pretty good to me.

Mushroom Fettuccine
Tikka Masala with rice
Butter Chicken with Basmati rice
BBQ Cut Salmon – I actually have to cook this thing, but the butter is included.
Gnocchi alla Sorrentina
Eggplant Parmesan – will consume.
Handmade chicken burritos

I’m still looking for the healthy part. Hahaha. I have to see how these food make me feel in the week to come. But for now psychologically I’m getting healthier.

Proofing the continue line of zeroes

Is it the things around you that make who you are or is it you who make the things around you what they are? Fifteen days into 2010 has been rather troublesome for my spirit. It brings mix emotions of the events that have passed over the years as well as the uneasy feeling of the things to be in the months to come. I wish I could say I feel positive and that it is a new year. I mean, isn’t it how that suppose to work? The new year bring hope, optimism and the turning of a new leaf? Yet I don’t feel that way. Therefore, I am consciously taking this weekend to explore what is inside of me that I yet do not know. Not sure how to break this down, since my emotion and thought comes from multiple directions. I wish it was two dimensional or even 3 dimensional. Maybe because I am writing this at 2:30 AM, but for me, I swear my thoughts feels like the trivial zeros in Riemann hypothesis. The proofing of what lies in this critical line of mine is beyond my comprehension. So maybe an approach to complex problems is to start with simple methods applies in this case. So what are things in my life that leave me uneasy?

My current job sucks. Enough said. I complained enough and ran it through my head to realize that it makes me unhappy. Although the hours and the travel benefits are unbelievable, I am left with a sense of what the phuck am I doing here?

An internal confirmation as to where I would be. Usually people can say my home is. I can not complete that statement. This makes me feel a bit nomadic. I don’t like the uncertainty. It leaves a void in my heart that is unexplained and I have no intention to visit that topic deeply. When I start thinking about this topic, I question whether it is because I’ve always moved around or that I’m too stubborn to just settle or even just something where I’m just mad at my upbringing. But in a way I believe my life be somehow navigated to this unsettle feeling of not able to say “this is home”.

Having a long distance relationship is finally hitting me. Maybe I’ve been trying to avoid this topic for some time now with some sort of self hypnosis. I think I’ve been using things to keep me busy so I would be distracted to just avoid my feeling about maintaining contact with someone who lives thousands of miles away. I held back the word relationship because if I were to examine this closely, it is the little everyday things that make up that interaction. Seeing, touching, exploring, doing the wrong, uncover the right, opening the door and seeing the person, sleeping, eating, realizing the bad, realizing the good, and just a whole chain of things that take a step forward in that exploration. But when physical distance comes to play, it eliminated many of those things and halts a relationship. But in reality nothing been stopped, because one core variable will always continue and that is time. As I explore this topic before, time can be a double edged sword or a double edged toothpick.

Friends are gone and truthfully having good friends around is really difficult to find. I am thankful that I still keep in contact with them, but yet like all type of relationship in general, physical distance detaches me from them. Not that I do not have any emotion for them or that I am not glad to see them, just that it is different. That difference becomes barriers and the physical distance eventually lead to emotional distance.

So with a combination of these things leave a very bitter taste in my mouth to say the least. If any of the four things change, it indefinitely brings other into more chaotic state. Where do my trivial zeroes lie in this critical line of mine? When do you stop seeking and accept things to be as is? Can one’s own conflict be transference to others around him? My most unsubstantiated concern is that nothing gets change or when things change, they change in the worse time possible. Maybe the question to my self is what to let go. Since I can remember, I’ve always tried to grab onto things until I can make it right. Gripping whatever that topic with all that I have spiritually as well as create my self hypnosis sucking it in unless I get what I want. Those times may deliver results, but often without some sore of casualty or opportunity cost. Then there are time when I waited too long to let go. This eventually leads to a constant self doubt and bipolar like dispositions of which I discover in my self evaluation are not good for the soul. Not good at all.

What do you call this?

A indication of character? A philosophy of leadership? An example of ugly politics? A wolf in sheep's clothing? The change that we all sucker to believe in. The transparency and openness that was promised.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20100112/ap_on_bi_ge/us_stimulus_counting_jobs

Bush couldn't say it, but I guess this administration knew how to execute it. It is FOOL ME ONCE, SHAME ON YOU; FOOL ME TWICE, SHAME ON ME. I guess all the people that so tunnel visioned in believing in this administration should take a reflection on one's audacity for seeking real truth. Maybe less time spent on criticising other people for not believing the same and more on uncover the cloth. I wonder when will people start judging the work of "the man" instead of the color of "the man".