Fear Factor

The thought of in a few months from now I will quit my job and go travel in Asia for 3 months scares me. That only word in that sentence that I had a problem deciding to use is the word "scare". In a way I am not sure what word best describe the emotion and the logical thoughts that are mesh together right now. I know I dislike my current job. I know I want some sort of change from what I do day to day and week to week. Yet on the flip side I can't help but to think what happens when I do not have a job to go to and the realization that no cash flow for the next couple of months. I tried to address this fear by submitting for jobs in anticipation that after the travel, I would land a job in Asia. Yet when I looked at these job descriptions from the websites, I discover many jobs require you to have the right to work in that country. So me physically being there means? So how do I combat this at the end of 3 months? Although there are jobs that are open to any applicants, but the majority prefer having local people that they don't have to sponsor to work in that country. With that discovery, I am full of anxiety. The possibilities that I may not find a job may happen. That thought really makes me feel like a ton of weight been put on my back. The thing is that the unknown create many possibilities. Those possibilities can be opportunities as well as lost. You really don't know until it happens later and the things is that no one ever hear about what was lost. Not sure what really all this means since my mind is really scattered with excitement of doing the trip, the fear that I may be making a huge financial mistake, the hope that the opportunities to it may bring, and the stress of if I end this adventure by myself, then what? Maybe it will be a Pyrrhic victory. If it is, then will I dwell on what was lost or embrace what was acquired?

My sword is as long as my number of visits on my website

I was wondering when this will finally happen. Truth and fiction will reach a blurry point. Ethical journalism will become so much for evident as know the digit pen becomes more powerful than the sword. Presidency can be reached, enemies can be created, and minds can be transformed. My next prediction, white light journalism versus dark light journalism.

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A Sniper's Aim

I guess the audacity of hope do not apply to everyone. It really should of been the audacity for separatism agenda.

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