Ponder on a Friday

My trip at SF ended rather quickly.  Last couple of days been fantastic weather and getting into the local life of eating and just random talking to strangers to just use to strange people. The city is indeed unique and I can like it as well as I can hate it.  As far as weather it is probably the perfect place for me.  It just makes me feel good to breath in the air and to see real sky u less what you see in Asia.  But the pressure to conform and be politically correct actually suffocate me.  I mean it is weird for a place of innovation, there is actually very little individual identity.  When one get a beard a whole lot of people get one too.  When one say fight the man this, everyone jump to it the same voice without doing much research.  That is why when you actually talk to people and have a different opinion, people actually feel a sense of relief as long as it is not too contraversial.  People I think deep inside especially the mass amount of the nerds feel they finally belong in a community so they are afraid to speak out, but thus all the passive emotion come out in other form or a given opportunity to express to someone willing to talk.  That is why it is always easy to meet people here because everyone secret want to say they don't discriminate, but secretly they want to with someone.  It is a great city though.  This trip just felt like either I changed or the city changed.  No sure what that means but I am a stranger to a place I tell other people on how great it is to live there.

On another note, time is passing by and my time away from sin is coming to a close with my last section in chi town.  At some point, I need to shift my mindset and not sure how I am going to do it, but sometime it takes an idea then move to intention and then to something else I guess.  Not sure how much I have within me, but let's see.

Finally I am getting older and time is drawing shorter and shorter.  It is true everday is closer to an end. Moving to a point where mindset of an old person and how he sees life very different from when he was in his 20s.