When making the wrong choice

It has been ages since I looked at this blog.  I realize I probably come here to rant more than to post positive messages.  So to be clear there are good thing, just it doesn't happen when I am here.  I think this post is no different just because certain things frustrate me so much that I feel trapped in a place that is choking the life out of me.  This time is about the wrong choice I made to move here. Earlier this year I told myself to be more positive about it, but what to do it I feel like the place is literally destroying my inner soul.  I tried to see the good and even try just stop being negative. Usually if I go into something and I will try to tell myself to give it time to adjust and to mould my thinking.  The self diagnosis of learning to grow and see things for the positive failed for the first time in my life, because this place has nothing that feeds the soul.  To be brutally honest, if it wasn't for D, I would leave this hell hole in a blink of an eye.  To start the weather is like hell if I ever go to one.  People are fake and really most just think they are better than other people.  Little do they know that if they step out of this country there are so much more to life and that they should just be more humble because the government favor them greatly and the foreigners provided the wealth creation they had for the last 30 years.  I mean come on, it is a 2nd world place masked with 1st world buildings.  I mean this place leaves you just a number on this earth with little contribution to this earth.  Looking around, you will not find or talk about many other things except money or talk about other people.  I have to say for the past 2.5 years, I had the least amount of personal growth or have not met anyone that actually add value to the world.  It leave such a negative view on the world when I am here.  People are just zombies and because there are nothing to do, the number one pass time is about complaining.  So a person gets sucked in and then they fall into the same zombie mode.  This seems extreme, I do feel that I am wasting my life by dying slowly.  I mean I rather pass away quicker than to feel so died and just continue to walk through the mall every weekend so that I can pretend I am not in purgatory.  Sadly this is one choice that I made that I regret it so much and I cannot seem to find the positive to this situation.  I am living everything that I don't want to be and really I envy those who is leaving this place.  Money should not be exchanged with putting your personal enrichment aside.  The number one thing is to investing in a person's mental health versus just getting caught into what other say is important.  Bottom line, is that I wish this was just a dream that I wake up to someday because this place suck.

What happen to Mr. O's hope and change?

8 year later after Mr. O was elected president, I hate to say that he is a bad of a leader as I predicted he would be.  US position in the world is the weakest in over a few decades.  The country is angry and afraid.  Those emotions prompt people to go to the extreme.  That disappointment when you crush people's hope, prompted people to start looking at a TV personality as a possible president of US.  Where we are here today is because of president Obama.  A president has limited powers, but for the power he or she does have it is critical he execute with no bias and with commitment.  One power he or she holds is a leader of a nation and as a representative of this great nation.  Mr. O made US weak.  I know this because I live abroad and if you are to ever start looking around and take note of the change, the position of US in the world has dropped considerably.  We have a nation of no stance and lack of position.  There is a lot I can say about this, but Mr. O is not existence to improve our foreign presence as a nation and he puts many American abroad in danger.  Yes he started it because no country now actually believes our president can stand up for anything.  A lot of air, but not a lot of action.  Materialize that hope and change that got him elected.  Where is it?

Racial divide and political divide.  I think it has gotten a lot worse.  I have never seen a leader who promote division constantly after he become president.  Isn't a leader suppose to blur the dividing lines after he gets elected?  Regardless of congress, you as a leader needs to take a higher stance and deliver.  That is why you are a leader.  If not, then really perhaps more training and experience needed before you start on the playing people's emotions.  There is so much about this.  But the cause and effect of this I see is that with Mr. T and Mr. O, both have the same emotional manipulation they inflict on the people of US.  Either emotion of over optimistic (hope and change) or emotion of fear (blame and change), it doesn't matter unless you can deliver and you are mature enough to be a leader.  Mr. T is fueling the failure of Mr. O to get what he is today.  It is sad that the American citizens cannot see this.  I do not know who the next president will be, but this election is critical.  We have about 12 years to catch up to.  Yes both republican and democratic president messed up big for the UNITED STATES.  We have lost the united part and have been building up the dividing lines.

There is some much I like to say about race in US.  But one thing I would like to say is to stop talking about it.  Yes it is counter intuitive, but to put it simply those who need to change does not change by you telling them they need to change.  You teach by starting to show something about yourself and negative response is not they way you teach people.  Anyways I save that for later.

For now I wish US citizen will start at least one thing today.  Take away one negative comment by you to someone and add one action by you to add value to someone else.  It does not have to be big, it can start with someone small, but start now.