It is good to be able to site down and write. I realize that these days I've been very lucky to be busy, but sometime I think things passes so fast that I never got the chance to write down my feelings or just no judgement of thoughts of what happened. Just to capture it so that I can revisit it someday. Weird thing is that it is not until I gotten older that I started to appreciate the importance of recording, the simple enjoyment of writing and taking photos to capture those moments in time. With that thought, so much has happened since my last blog and I am not sure where to start. Well I think I break it down like the Italian meals:
1st course:
I got on a plane on Sunday evening to fly over to France to meet up with D. We explore the French Riviera, had a wild train ride making 3 stops (actually her ride was rougher than mine), saw the Italian Riviera, had a great time hiking to show D one of my favorite places, had intense moments of conversation with her, and enjoyed doing nothing with someone that I did not expect to have such strong feel at this time of my life. So basically a terrifically unexpected roller coaster week. Looking back I think it is great that when I am with her, it seems like time passes so fast. Maybe because we were traveling or maybe simply when you are having a good time, there is just never ever enough time. With the time I spent with her came moment of smiles and as well as concerns. We talked about our belief in money, family, values, other people, and life's commitments. Through all the conversation I realize we have our differences and our similarities. Which if you look at it, is all a part of dating and relationship. If you really want to be with someone that does not have conflicts, then be with yourself. It is the fine line of whether those differences break the two people or make the two people stronger. Well time and how we handle the conflict determine the future result. But I am a strong believer that things are only good and terrific when there is a existence of the negative effect. Meaning how can we truly know what is good if there is no evil? Each plays its part. Embrace it. There is a lot to be said about this week, but I think one word that I took with me to France was "Auspicious". The mean is: promising success, opportune, favored by fortune. That is how I feel about the time so far I've spend with D. I hope for promising successful relationship with D. I think I was fortune to experience this regardless what the outcome may be in the future. Now is the opportune time to having such feelings because I think I need it. Therefore thus far I think I am favored by fortune that came to be beginning of 2008. Despite our differences, our likeness, and possible future hurddles, I hope we can always smile at the end of the day. Well....let's hope.
2nd course:
After coming back from Europe, I had my interview with the VP of Boiler room company. It is weird that after coming back I really had very little motivation to prepare for the interview. I know that it is always important to be prepare for a interview. But yet I guess my heart was not into it. It would be a good opportunity, yet something just prevented me to put passion into what the job is about. I did finally go to the interview while juggling my time study for work, my Wednesday class, and my other commitments. Yet I probably could of rearrange things, but i waited until the last 15 minutes before to do any review. To little surprise, I did not do I well as I usually would. I got to admit this time the office in Foster City was much nicer and had more diverse set of people. Although most still fit the same mold, but at least ethnically it was more diverse environment. Well I will see if I get a call by. I think this interview was more for me to determine if I want the job or not. By talking with the recruiter it was up to me to mess it up and I think my lack of effort showed in my interview. Oh well, lesson learned. Maybe some soul searching is due for me to explore why I do that. Obviously do I really need to have passion for my work. All it does it to bring in a paycheck. My passion should exist outside of work. Yet on the reverse side, I think majority of our life is spend at work, so shouldn't we have passion or feel a sense of fulfillment with what we do?
Desert:
I got recent request from friends asking me to go on trips. They really think I don't work and I have unlimited amount of vacation time. What the heck. Hahaha..... Although I got to admit, being in this job, and unknowing how long I will have this job, I do have a lot more time fulfilling my desire to travel and just enjoy mother earth. But the trips that were offered up were, Costa Rica, Mtn. Fuji, and Hong Kong. How am I suppose to fit these in my calendar? I still plan on meeting D in Seoul if destiny permits. Man sometime I just wish I can just say okay, I am not working anymore and just see the world and work on my memory as reap the opportunity that life has to offer. In a side note, part of this thought was that a good friends dad went to ICU, unexpectedly over the weekend. I know that it hit him by surprise because he just talked to his dad. So now with all his aspiration of going to grad school, he may halt that process until he see his dad in full recovery. I don't blame him, because I know with something that traumatic happens, a person always tries to evaluated and re prioritize. Well I hope the best for him and his family.
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